I just want to thank Vayie for sharing her blog tricks with me. That is why my account is neater and look so much better.
Thanks, Vayie!
Thanks, Vayie!
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Thursday, November 20, 2008
no sugarcoating, please.
Bubi and Babi's monthsary last November 17th (yes, it's corny, I know, but we do celebrate it) ended with a pffft!.Thanks to the unexpected bad news that I was one of the CHOSEN agents who will be transferred to another queue. Reasons were laid out - because I am a QA performer and that I have good communication skills. Blah, blah, blah. And THAT doesn't make me a KEEPER?! Bullshifism, I say. (Jay, pahiram muna ng expression.)
They couldn't let go of my other teammates because they were already trained for the tools that will roll out by next week. Why were we not trained the same during our QMT which caused so much concern among the superiors that we were not PRODUCTIVE?! (I wonder...)
That night, I asked myself "WHY ME?". And it all boils down to one thing --they just had to let me go because I speak my mind. I think it's unfair that I am being "punished" for using God's gift to put some people in their place, but hey, I'm NOT a supervisor, right?!
I'm really upset at this decision for many reasons. First, I was treated like I was a newbie or a probie -- transferring me to another queue without any notice or procedure. I feel I am not valued and my status and loyalty was not considered. They're lucky that I won't be caught for insubordination.
Second, I love my queue. I think it's the best queue EVER!! It's interesting and challenging and it takes time before one can really say that they are qualified to handle our queue and its issues.
Third, I don't want to be in a chat queue.
Lastly, I will definitely miss my friends and the times we have. I am so blessed and honored to have work with such wonderful and smart people. I'm proud to say that we are the reason why the queue has evolved to what it is today. =D It's sad to know that I won't be working with them anymore. But like what Alex said, "once an Uno Animo, always an Uno Animo." That's really comforting. (Thanks, Alex!)
To those who continue to try to insult my intelligence, I admire you for having the guts to do so. But I hope you won't deceive yourself believing that you have succeeded because we know better. You were able to do what you have done because you are in the position to manipulate the process, but that doesn't mean that you are way smarter than I am. In fact, I AM SURE that I AM SMARTER than all of you combined. WE ARE SMARTER than you all are because we have the heart to do what is right.
You had your turn. I will definitely have mine.
I'm thankful that I have Vayie and Kim to make things a whole lot easier for me.
@Vayie and Kim -- we know better so I'm sure that we'll definitely do better. Vayie, thanks for the encouragement. I always look up to you and you are an inspiration. Kim, thank you for making our voices heard. You made our voices heard when you said your piece. I hope they will try to become better leaders from now on.
@Kuya Homer -- I will miss having our talks about life in general. Nabawasan na ang mang-aasar sa yo, lakas mo namang magdasal. =P
@Cyper -- thank you sa comforting words. di tayo madalas magkita but I want to thank you kasi kahit ganon you always save a warm hug and smile for me.
@Jhoan -- Ingatan mo ang sarili mo. Alam ko, madalas akong mang-asar sayo but that doesn't mean I don't care. Love yourself first. Sana maintindihan mo na we care. You may not hear the words you want to hear, but you'll definitely hear the words that NEED to hear kasi kaibigan ka namin.
@Kuya Alex (hehehe...) -- I'm so happy that you're having a baby boy. Kahit mejo grumpy ka minsan, alam ko you'll be a great dad. Ingatan ang sarili, bawasan ang pagkain ng matataba at ang pagyoyosi. =D
@Febe -- thank you for the chocolates everytime you see me sad, tired and sleepy. I feel better not because of the chocolates but because of your thoughtfulness and sweetness. =)
@Dustin -- my Roman Cath'lic chorva!! I will definitely miss our conversations and our English accent lessons. hehehe...
@Tin -- Ingat sa mga dates. ;P
@Tetay -- ikaw ang kasundo ko in a lot of things. Haaay, I will definitely miss our conversations and food trips after work.
I love you guys. We're not just teammates, we're good friends. I hope I will still have the chance to work with most of you again.
GO UNO ANIMO -- One Team. One Goal. One Mind.
They couldn't let go of my other teammates because they were already trained for the tools that will roll out by next week. Why were we not trained the same during our QMT which caused so much concern among the superiors that we were not PRODUCTIVE?! (I wonder...)
That night, I asked myself "WHY ME?". And it all boils down to one thing --they just had to let me go because I speak my mind. I think it's unfair that I am being "punished" for using God's gift to put some people in their place, but hey, I'm NOT a supervisor, right?!
I'm really upset at this decision for many reasons. First, I was treated like I was a newbie or a probie -- transferring me to another queue without any notice or procedure. I feel I am not valued and my status and loyalty was not considered. They're lucky that I won't be caught for insubordination.
Second, I love my queue. I think it's the best queue EVER!! It's interesting and challenging and it takes time before one can really say that they are qualified to handle our queue and its issues.
Third, I don't want to be in a chat queue.
Lastly, I will definitely miss my friends and the times we have. I am so blessed and honored to have work with such wonderful and smart people. I'm proud to say that we are the reason why the queue has evolved to what it is today. =D It's sad to know that I won't be working with them anymore. But like what Alex said, "once an Uno Animo, always an Uno Animo." That's really comforting. (Thanks, Alex!)
To those who continue to try to insult my intelligence, I admire you for having the guts to do so. But I hope you won't deceive yourself believing that you have succeeded because we know better. You were able to do what you have done because you are in the position to manipulate the process, but that doesn't mean that you are way smarter than I am. In fact, I AM SURE that I AM SMARTER than all of you combined. WE ARE SMARTER than you all are because we have the heart to do what is right.
You had your turn. I will definitely have mine.
I'm thankful that I have Vayie and Kim to make things a whole lot easier for me.
@Vayie and Kim -- we know better so I'm sure that we'll definitely do better. Vayie, thanks for the encouragement. I always look up to you and you are an inspiration. Kim, thank you for making our voices heard. You made our voices heard when you said your piece. I hope they will try to become better leaders from now on.
@Kuya Homer -- I will miss having our talks about life in general. Nabawasan na ang mang-aasar sa yo, lakas mo namang magdasal. =P
@Cyper -- thank you sa comforting words. di tayo madalas magkita but I want to thank you kasi kahit ganon you always save a warm hug and smile for me.
@Jhoan -- Ingatan mo ang sarili mo. Alam ko, madalas akong mang-asar sayo but that doesn't mean I don't care. Love yourself first. Sana maintindihan mo na we care. You may not hear the words you want to hear, but you'll definitely hear the words that NEED to hear kasi kaibigan ka namin.
@Kuya Alex (hehehe...) -- I'm so happy that you're having a baby boy. Kahit mejo grumpy ka minsan, alam ko you'll be a great dad. Ingatan ang sarili, bawasan ang pagkain ng matataba at ang pagyoyosi. =D
@Febe -- thank you for the chocolates everytime you see me sad, tired and sleepy. I feel better not because of the chocolates but because of your thoughtfulness and sweetness. =)
@Dustin -- my Roman Cath'lic chorva!! I will definitely miss our conversations and our English accent lessons. hehehe...
@Tin -- Ingat sa mga dates. ;P
@Tetay -- ikaw ang kasundo ko in a lot of things. Haaay, I will definitely miss our conversations and food trips after work.
I love you guys. We're not just teammates, we're good friends. I hope I will still have the chance to work with most of you again.
GO UNO ANIMO -- One Team. One Goal. One Mind.
Saturday, November 1, 2008
I'm Alive!!
I can't believed that it's the last day of my first week here in our new location -- Total Corporate Centre in Taguig.
I mentioned before that I actually welcomed the change but that doesn't mean that I'm not concern that any booboos might make me consider leaving my job.
So I'm happy to say that so far, I'm okay. I survived the changes and I'm alive!! =D
I mentioned before that I actually welcomed the change but that doesn't mean that I'm not concern that any booboos might make me consider leaving my job.
So I'm happy to say that so far, I'm okay. I survived the changes and I'm alive!! =D
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Random stuff on a Saturday
I had a massive headache yesterday after coming home from work and I felt like throwing up. I decided to hit the sack as early as 6.30pm because I knew that I would not be able to eat anything because of the pain. Good thing, no one really forced me to eat before going to sleep.
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I woke up at 3.45am today feeling much better. I immediately charged my camera’s battery, put some songs in my MP3 player then charged it too and ate the fried chicken and nido soup I missed having with everyone last night. The food was great. After eating and putting everything away from the dinner table (I’m still sleepy to consider washing the dishes, hehe), I hit the shower and went ahead with my usual morning rituals during my workdays. I felt good not having the feeling of being in a rush or worrying that I might miss my favorite bus (MALTC). It’s Saturday and it has started well.
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I remember that I wasn’t able to spend time with Kmart last night. Actually, I didn’t even see him. I missed the naughty kiddo! I’ll just bully him when I get home. =P
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I checked my friendster account yesterday and I was really happy to see that Archie, one of my good friends back in high school is already married. I knew he would eventually end up married. I just thought I just wished I was there to witness this important event in his life. I couldn’t pass the chance to send him a message and congratulate him in this new chapter in his life. He is currently based abroad and I really hope that when he comes back, we will have the time to catch up.
OMG! I missed greeting Archie on his birthday last October 11th. SHOOT!! I might need to send him another message and say sorry for forgetting it this year.
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It’s Miguel Lorenzo Corpuz dela Cruz’s Christening today. He is Tetay and Jowell’s first baby.
WELCOME TO THE CHRISTIAN WORLD, MILO!!
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Sometimes, I feel so old when I see that most of my friends are either married or getting hitched soon or have kids or having kids soon. I’m 28 and I’m not even yet close to having my own family. Yes, I do have a boyfriend but there are still so many things to consider before taking the actual plunge.
So with so many things in mind, I’m certain that, although I have this sad feeling that I’m not yet settled, I’m still not ready to walk down the aisle soon.
I do want to see my little angels soon but I just want to make sure that I could give them their own little heaven here on earth.
I only wish that while waiting for their time, they’re spending their time reading loads of books and hanging out with the saints in heaven so that they’ll grow up to be smart and God-fearing people. =D
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I’m now at work and I’m all by myself – translation: no teammates around. I do love working quietly but not THIS quiet. I have no one to talk to when I feel confused about an email. I have no one to eat with during lunch. I have no one to chat with when I feel a little bit tired working.
Aaargh! I miss the morning girls already! =(
But I’m still thankful that Janice, an acquaintance from another team, is keeping me company. She’s so nice to sit beside me.
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I received a text message from Dustin this morning. We are finally moving to TCC this Monday and saying goodbye to our second home, the EBP building. I can’t help but feel sad but it’s like being adults, we move until we feel it’s time to settle. Hehehe…
Anyway, I know that Vayie, Tetay and I have been actually looking forward to the move since we came to accept that it is inevitable. It’s not because we’re THAT excited. It’s just that we want to get this change done and over with and start adjusting to the new environment.
I will definitely miss my one smooth-sailing bus ride from home to Makati and now, submit myself to the dreaded walk in the Guadalupe footbridge after the bus ride (I’m scared because I can feel the bridge shaking whenever vehicles pass under it) to take a jeepney ride to TCC. Hopefully, this is just another fear I will soon overcome. (before I used to dread riding buses)
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I started writing songs again two days ago. Hopefully, this December, Ceasar and I can afford to buy an acoustic guitar. He usually identifies the chords of the songs I make since I have no idea which chord goes well with another chord. **sigh Another item added to my long wish list.
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JUST SHARING!
These are my favorite songs for now:
Back into You – Amber Davis
Cherish – Madonna
Crush, Crush, Crush – Paramore
Misery Business – Paramore
You and Me – Lifehouse
For You – The Calling
Easy – Paula Deanda
Walk Away – Paula Deanda
You Were Mine - Dixie Chicks
I Remember – Keyshia Cole
Gemini – Spongecola
Underneath the Stars – Mariah Carey
I’m That Chick – Mariah Carey
That’s Where You Take Me – Britney Spears
Bad Habit – Destiny’s Child
Behind Those Hazel Eyes – Kelly Clarkson
Beautiful Disaster – Kelly Clarkson
Over – Lindsay Lohan
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I'd like to greet my good friend, Chris Paul a very belated happy, happy birthday!! And also congratulations to him and his wife, Lissa as they're expecting a bouncing baby boy!!
I woke up at 3.45am today feeling much better. I immediately charged my camera’s battery, put some songs in my MP3 player then charged it too and ate the fried chicken and nido soup I missed having with everyone last night. The food was great. After eating and putting everything away from the dinner table (I’m still sleepy to consider washing the dishes, hehe), I hit the shower and went ahead with my usual morning rituals during my workdays. I felt good not having the feeling of being in a rush or worrying that I might miss my favorite bus (MALTC). It’s Saturday and it has started well.
I remember that I wasn’t able to spend time with Kmart last night. Actually, I didn’t even see him. I missed the naughty kiddo! I’ll just bully him when I get home. =P
I checked my friendster account yesterday and I was really happy to see that Archie, one of my good friends back in high school is already married. I knew he would eventually end up married. I just thought I just wished I was there to witness this important event in his life. I couldn’t pass the chance to send him a message and congratulate him in this new chapter in his life. He is currently based abroad and I really hope that when he comes back, we will have the time to catch up.
OMG! I missed greeting Archie on his birthday last October 11th. SHOOT!! I might need to send him another message and say sorry for forgetting it this year.
It’s Miguel Lorenzo Corpuz dela Cruz’s Christening today. He is Tetay and Jowell’s first baby.
WELCOME TO THE CHRISTIAN WORLD, MILO!!
Sometimes, I feel so old when I see that most of my friends are either married or getting hitched soon or have kids or having kids soon. I’m 28 and I’m not even yet close to having my own family. Yes, I do have a boyfriend but there are still so many things to consider before taking the actual plunge.
So with so many things in mind, I’m certain that, although I have this sad feeling that I’m not yet settled, I’m still not ready to walk down the aisle soon.
I do want to see my little angels soon but I just want to make sure that I could give them their own little heaven here on earth.
I only wish that while waiting for their time, they’re spending their time reading loads of books and hanging out with the saints in heaven so that they’ll grow up to be smart and God-fearing people. =D
I’m now at work and I’m all by myself – translation: no teammates around. I do love working quietly but not THIS quiet. I have no one to talk to when I feel confused about an email. I have no one to eat with during lunch. I have no one to chat with when I feel a little bit tired working.
Aaargh! I miss the morning girls already! =(
But I’m still thankful that Janice, an acquaintance from another team, is keeping me company. She’s so nice to sit beside me.
I received a text message from Dustin this morning. We are finally moving to TCC this Monday and saying goodbye to our second home, the EBP building. I can’t help but feel sad but it’s like being adults, we move until we feel it’s time to settle. Hehehe…
Anyway, I know that Vayie, Tetay and I have been actually looking forward to the move since we came to accept that it is inevitable. It’s not because we’re THAT excited. It’s just that we want to get this change done and over with and start adjusting to the new environment.
I will definitely miss my one smooth-sailing bus ride from home to Makati and now, submit myself to the dreaded walk in the Guadalupe footbridge after the bus ride (I’m scared because I can feel the bridge shaking whenever vehicles pass under it) to take a jeepney ride to TCC. Hopefully, this is just another fear I will soon overcome. (before I used to dread riding buses)
I started writing songs again two days ago. Hopefully, this December, Ceasar and I can afford to buy an acoustic guitar. He usually identifies the chords of the songs I make since I have no idea which chord goes well with another chord. **sigh Another item added to my long wish list.
JUST SHARING!
These are my favorite songs for now:
Back into You – Amber Davis
Cherish – Madonna
Crush, Crush, Crush – Paramore
Misery Business – Paramore
You and Me – Lifehouse
For You – The Calling
Easy – Paula Deanda
Walk Away – Paula Deanda
You Were Mine - Dixie Chicks
I Remember – Keyshia Cole
Gemini – Spongecola
Underneath the Stars – Mariah Carey
I’m That Chick – Mariah Carey
That’s Where You Take Me – Britney Spears
Bad Habit – Destiny’s Child
Behind Those Hazel Eyes – Kelly Clarkson
Beautiful Disaster – Kelly Clarkson
Over – Lindsay Lohan
I'd like to greet my good friend, Chris Paul a very belated happy, happy birthday!! And also congratulations to him and his wife, Lissa as they're expecting a bouncing baby boy!!
Friday, October 17, 2008
Requested song
I would like to dedicate the song, SHUT UP by the Black-eyed peas, particularly the lines...
"Shut up, just shut up, shut up... Shut up, just shut up, shut up... Shut up, just shut up, shut up... Shut it up, just shut up, shut up"
... to the noisy people on the production floor na mas inuuna ang daldal bago ang trabaho at nakakaabala sa mga gustong magtrabaho.
Sha-boo-ya.. Sha-Sha.. Sha-boo-ya!!!
"Shut up, just shut up, shut up... Shut up, just shut up, shut up... Shut up, just shut up, shut up... Shut it up, just shut up, shut up"
... to the noisy people on the production floor na mas inuuna ang daldal bago ang trabaho at nakakaabala sa mga gustong magtrabaho.
Sha-boo-ya.. Sha-Sha.. Sha-boo-ya!!!
Saturday, October 11, 2008
bitchy and messy
The morning girls were surprised to see that there were strangers seated in our stations. I, personally, couldn’t help myself to be a bit bitchy and cranky because I really hate someone breaking my routine. I know I’m mean in that sense but, imagine something you’ve been used to suddenly taken from you.
… (crickets chirping)
Hmm, okay, I guess I’m just such a brat.
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My tresses are in need of a good treatment – BADLY. We don’t seem to get along well these past few days. They seem to go in different directions and can no longer be tamed with the usual conditioning and combing.
Hopefully, the next payout will be large enough to accommodate a cut, relax and color treatment for my hair. Love that to happen! =D
… (crickets chirping)
Hmm, okay, I guess I’m just such a brat.
My tresses are in need of a good treatment – BADLY. We don’t seem to get along well these past few days. They seem to go in different directions and can no longer be tamed with the usual conditioning and combing.
Hopefully, the next payout will be large enough to accommodate a cut, relax and color treatment for my hair. Love that to happen! =D
Friday, October 10, 2008
On National Teachers' Day
I just had my favorite Nacho Overload at Jollibee for breakfast and my, oh my, it was definitely a treat. Super yummy!
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I would like to greet all the teachers a HAPPY TEACHERS’ DAY!!! I salute all the men and women who embraced this noble profession of inspiring and molding the hearts and minds of the Filipino youth with great courage and sacrifice.
To the teachers who will always be special to me:
My pre-school teachers in CLC: Teacher Ruth, Teacher Debbie, Teacher, Chit and Teacher May
My grade school teachers in Angelicum: my English teachers – Mrs. Gerona, Ms. Tess Magno, Ms. Elizabeth Pamo, Mrs. Virginia de Leon and Ms. Taruc; my Social Studies teacher: Mr. Ubaldo; and Fr. Tamerlana, O.P. and Fr. Alarcon, O.P.
My High school teachers: Mr. Revuelto, Mrs. Torrejos, Mrs. Tibang, Mr. Ronald Paulo, Ms. Esquilona, Ms. Bartolay, Ms. Pontila, Ms. Gupit
My college professors: Prof. Hernandez (Ling 110), Prof. Soresca (Integrated Spanish 1 & 2), Prof. Palis (SocSci), Prof. Orillos (EDL105), Prof. Banares (Philo I), Prof. Monponbanua (PolSci), Prof. Berlin del Mundo (Botany and Zoology), Prof. Menoy (Comm II), Prof. Cosico (Educ), Prof. Rustico Agacaoili, Jr. (English Lit), Dr. Sabile (College Dean), Prof. Julita V. Aquino (Comm I)
Also, Louie Vi, Jeca, Cacai, Merriam, and all the teachers I know that I forgot to mention...
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Happy Teachers’ Day and thank you very much for everything you’ve taught and done for me!!
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It’s not so fun here in the office today, it’s Vayie and Tetay's off today. Don’t get me wrong. It’s not that I don’t find Cacai fun to be with, but there are loads of emails and we just don’t have the luxury to talk while dealing with this much emails. The rain pouring hard outside makes it harder for me to work – it’s making me sleepy. =(
Plus it’s sad to know that I will be eating all by myself at lunch time because Cai has her lunch back at her pad with her housemates. I might eat faster than I usually do when I’m with Vayie and Tetay since I have no one to talk to.
It’s one of those days…
I would like to greet all the teachers a HAPPY TEACHERS’ DAY!!! I salute all the men and women who embraced this noble profession of inspiring and molding the hearts and minds of the Filipino youth with great courage and sacrifice.
To the teachers who will always be special to me:
My pre-school teachers in CLC: Teacher Ruth, Teacher Debbie, Teacher, Chit and Teacher May
My grade school teachers in Angelicum: my English teachers – Mrs. Gerona, Ms. Tess Magno, Ms. Elizabeth Pamo, Mrs. Virginia de Leon and Ms. Taruc; my Social Studies teacher: Mr. Ubaldo; and Fr. Tamerlana, O.P. and Fr. Alarcon, O.P.
My High school teachers: Mr. Revuelto, Mrs. Torrejos, Mrs. Tibang, Mr. Ronald Paulo, Ms. Esquilona, Ms. Bartolay, Ms. Pontila, Ms. Gupit
My college professors: Prof. Hernandez (Ling 110), Prof. Soresca (Integrated Spanish 1 & 2), Prof. Palis (SocSci), Prof. Orillos (EDL105), Prof. Banares (Philo I), Prof. Monponbanua (PolSci), Prof. Berlin del Mundo (Botany and Zoology), Prof. Menoy (Comm II), Prof. Cosico (Educ), Prof. Rustico Agacaoili, Jr. (English Lit), Dr. Sabile (College Dean), Prof. Julita V. Aquino (Comm I)
Also, Louie Vi, Jeca, Cacai, Merriam, and all the teachers I know that I forgot to mention...
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Happy Teachers’ Day and thank you very much for everything you’ve taught and done for me!!
It’s not so fun here in the office today, it’s Vayie and Tetay's off today. Don’t get me wrong. It’s not that I don’t find Cacai fun to be with, but there are loads of emails and we just don’t have the luxury to talk while dealing with this much emails. The rain pouring hard outside makes it harder for me to work – it’s making me sleepy. =(
Plus it’s sad to know that I will be eating all by myself at lunch time because Cai has her lunch back at her pad with her housemates. I might eat faster than I usually do when I’m with Vayie and Tetay since I have no one to talk to.
It’s one of those days…
I can no longer deny that I gained a few pounds
Ceasar and I were watching TV last night since it was his off. During commercial, we saw this teaser for the next episode of the reality TV show, “Pussycat Dolls Presents: Girlicious”. I like the show since it showcases beautiful women with great talent in singing and dancing. Although there is every reason to be envy, you can’t help but admire them for what they can do.
I’m just not sure if they will make it as big as the Pussycat Dolls (I love Nicole!) even though Robin Antin claims that this new girl group will be performing songs of a different music genre. Guess, we just have to wait and see.
Anyway, Ceasar has always teased me as one of the Pussycat Dolls who never made it on tour because of an injury. =D But last night was different. He called me a PUSSYCAT BALL!!! And it made me feel awful because I can no longer deny that I have really gained some weight since Ceasar already noticed it. Believe me, I’m very blessed to have a boyfriend who doesn’t really care about how I look. I mean, he always makes me feel beautiful so sometimes I don’t really see the need for me to make an effort. (I know, I know, lazy me) But now I decided to take care of this matter, basically for my health since for the past week, I noticed that I easily get tired and for me, that’s a bad sign and an urgent call for help. Good thing I started doing Pilates again (just the basic routines) last Wednesday and hopefully I will lose the extra pounds soon and will no longer be called the Pussycat Ball. =P
**Waah!! Tinawag ako ni Iwo na malusog. Hindi pa umeepekto yung pagpi-Pilates ko for two days?! (Hehehe…)
I’m just not sure if they will make it as big as the Pussycat Dolls (I love Nicole!) even though Robin Antin claims that this new girl group will be performing songs of a different music genre. Guess, we just have to wait and see.
Anyway, Ceasar has always teased me as one of the Pussycat Dolls who never made it on tour because of an injury. =D But last night was different. He called me a PUSSYCAT BALL!!! And it made me feel awful because I can no longer deny that I have really gained some weight since Ceasar already noticed it. Believe me, I’m very blessed to have a boyfriend who doesn’t really care about how I look. I mean, he always makes me feel beautiful so sometimes I don’t really see the need for me to make an effort. (I know, I know, lazy me) But now I decided to take care of this matter, basically for my health since for the past week, I noticed that I easily get tired and for me, that’s a bad sign and an urgent call for help. Good thing I started doing Pilates again (just the basic routines) last Wednesday and hopefully I will lose the extra pounds soon and will no longer be called the Pussycat Ball. =P
**Waah!! Tinawag ako ni Iwo na malusog. Hindi pa umeepekto yung pagpi-Pilates ko for two days?! (Hehehe…)
Thursday, October 9, 2008
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Great news!
Thanks to Tetay, I will be getting my own set of the Twilight Saga before Christmas – in hardbound!!! Yay!!
My books (yes, they’re already mine) will not come cheap (Php3200/set) but they’re definitely worth it. They will be coming from the US and are expected to arrive before December 15. I CAN’T WAIT!!!
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Our team, Uno Animo, will be doing the Christmas Wish List for the third time. But this time, as friends.
Since there will be a merge of teams soon, we may no longer be called Uno Animo anymore. =( I know it’s sad but we say it’s just a name. After all, we consider one another “good friends” so it really doesn’t matter.
We have no updates yet on when the merge will be official but we really don’t have the patience to “wait” for our new teammates to join us in this annual activity so we decided to just do it among ourselves.
I still don’t have a wish list that could fit the Php600 budget so I think there’s a need for me to go to the mall or a bookstore soon to check out what I want to get this Christmas and complete my list.
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We might visit our soon-to-be building, the Total Corporate Center today. (me, Tetay, Cacai—hopefull with her new camera, Khim and Kuya Homer) along with two other teams.
Our other teammates have already seen the building last week. (Unfortunately, it was during my rest days) And they said (well, most of them said) that it’s neither as awful nor as spectacular as some people said it was.
I got to see the façade last Saturday when we were on our way to Antipolo and the area was not as depressing but not as fabulous too. Anyway, I’m happy to know that I am not the only one who welcomes this change with optimism.
Too bad, I don’t have my camera with me since the original plan was that we will go there on the 15th – payday, but a free ride IS a free ride. This will not only save me money but also the energy from commuting under the scorching heat of the sun. =D
Anyway, the important thing is I will have the chance to familiarize myself with our new home.
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I really need to go to the bathroom now (PEE!!!!) and I can’t coz the ladies’ room is packed – I mean “PACKED”. I don’t know what’s taking ALL these girls so long to do everything they need to do to face the remaining hours of their workday. =(
Lemme check again… (after 7 minutes)Ok, I’m good. =D
Thanks to Tetay, I will be getting my own set of the Twilight Saga before Christmas – in hardbound!!! Yay!!
My books (yes, they’re already mine) will not come cheap (Php3200/set) but they’re definitely worth it. They will be coming from the US and are expected to arrive before December 15. I CAN’T WAIT!!!
Our team, Uno Animo, will be doing the Christmas Wish List for the third time. But this time, as friends.
Since there will be a merge of teams soon, we may no longer be called Uno Animo anymore. =( I know it’s sad but we say it’s just a name. After all, we consider one another “good friends” so it really doesn’t matter.
We have no updates yet on when the merge will be official but we really don’t have the patience to “wait” for our new teammates to join us in this annual activity so we decided to just do it among ourselves.
I still don’t have a wish list that could fit the Php600 budget so I think there’s a need for me to go to the mall or a bookstore soon to check out what I want to get this Christmas and complete my list.
We might visit our soon-to-be building, the Total Corporate Center today. (me, Tetay, Cacai—hopefull with her new camera, Khim and Kuya Homer) along with two other teams.
Our other teammates have already seen the building last week. (Unfortunately, it was during my rest days) And they said (well, most of them said) that it’s neither as awful nor as spectacular as some people said it was.
I got to see the façade last Saturday when we were on our way to Antipolo and the area was not as depressing but not as fabulous too. Anyway, I’m happy to know that I am not the only one who welcomes this change with optimism.
Too bad, I don’t have my camera with me since the original plan was that we will go there on the 15th – payday, but a free ride IS a free ride. This will not only save me money but also the energy from commuting under the scorching heat of the sun. =D
Anyway, the important thing is I will have the chance to familiarize myself with our new home.
I really need to go to the bathroom now (PEE!!!!) and I can’t coz the ladies’ room is packed – I mean “PACKED”. I don’t know what’s taking ALL these girls so long to do everything they need to do to face the remaining hours of their workday. =(
Lemme check again… (after 7 minutes)Ok, I’m good. =D
I just can't but I had fun
I find myself weird. I have difficulty writing about happy stuff. Pero kapag masama ang loob ko, parang high-powered gun kung tumira. Ewan ko ba, pero I can’t find the right words to say, to express how happy I am. And if I do, it ends up being too cheesy or too mushy even for me. And I don’t like it.
Anyway, it’s been five days since our super duper fun team building in Antipolo but I have not been in the mood to write about the wonderful time I spent with my teammates. I had lots of fun. Period. I am now a happy camper after the well-deserved “vacation” from answering emails for more than 24 hours.
Basta, nag-enjoy talaga ako kasi I spent a relaxing weekend with my friends – just eating, singing, swimming, sleeping (then repeat everything… Hehehe). That is one life that might take me so long to get tired of. =P
**Super sorry, hindi pa ako makapag-upload ng mga pics. Sakit ko na talaga ang katamaran na gawin yun agad. Mukhang tama nga si Vayie, mga December ko na ma-a-upload ang mga pictures. =D
Anyway, it’s been five days since our super duper fun team building in Antipolo but I have not been in the mood to write about the wonderful time I spent with my teammates. I had lots of fun. Period. I am now a happy camper after the well-deserved “vacation” from answering emails for more than 24 hours.
Basta, nag-enjoy talaga ako kasi I spent a relaxing weekend with my friends – just eating, singing, swimming, sleeping (then repeat everything… Hehehe). That is one life that might take me so long to get tired of. =P
**Super sorry, hindi pa ako makapag-upload ng mga pics. Sakit ko na talaga ang katamaran na gawin yun agad. Mukhang tama nga si Vayie, mga December ko na ma-a-upload ang mga pictures. =D
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Time to relax and unwind...
It’s almost 2am and I still have to wait for another hour before my shift starts (I’ve been here since 12.30am). Good thing, this is for a very important occasion… ATO Reactive Uno Animo’s first team building for 2008!!
Woohoo!!!
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Thanks to Dustin, he took the heavy bags with him and left the light ones for us, girls (Tetay, Vayie and me). Unfortunately, he forgot to bring the paper plates that Tetay brought here in the office with him.
Thank goodness, that Resty will be with us, at least we have someone big and strong to carry most of the bags for us since we all know that Resty is such a gentleman. =D
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My head is aching. My eyes want to sleep. I don’t really feel good when I lack sleep.
I got stuck in heavy traffic last night when I went to Megamall to buy food and some school stuff for Josine last night. I was home by 8pm but I was too tired to immediately hit the sack for that much needed rest. I was only able to get 2 hours of sleep. The cold shower helped in jumpstarting my brain. But now that I’m here in the office and used to the biting cold of the production and the comforting warmth brought by my jacket, I’m so tempted to just go to the break room and take a long nap.
I know I can’t. =(
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I need to do something stimulating to my brain. I’m really sleepy – I think might fall asleep while walking.
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Okay, here’s my first attempt to stay awake. =P
Wow, Febe just gave me a packet of chocolate-covered raisins. Hope this helps. Thanks, Febe!!!
Going back to my attempt…
Failed.
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Sana 12nn na. I just want to be in the resort, take a short nap and spend time with my teammates.
We all deserve this break. I’m so happy that our plans to do this finally pushed through.
Shoot! 4.57am pa lang. 7 hours pa. Waaaaah...
Woohoo!!!
Thanks to Dustin, he took the heavy bags with him and left the light ones for us, girls (Tetay, Vayie and me). Unfortunately, he forgot to bring the paper plates that Tetay brought here in the office with him.
Thank goodness, that Resty will be with us, at least we have someone big and strong to carry most of the bags for us since we all know that Resty is such a gentleman. =D
My head is aching. My eyes want to sleep. I don’t really feel good when I lack sleep.
I got stuck in heavy traffic last night when I went to Megamall to buy food and some school stuff for Josine last night. I was home by 8pm but I was too tired to immediately hit the sack for that much needed rest. I was only able to get 2 hours of sleep. The cold shower helped in jumpstarting my brain. But now that I’m here in the office and used to the biting cold of the production and the comforting warmth brought by my jacket, I’m so tempted to just go to the break room and take a long nap.
I know I can’t. =(
I need to do something stimulating to my brain. I’m really sleepy – I think might fall asleep while walking.
Okay, here’s my first attempt to stay awake. =P
Wow, Febe just gave me a packet of chocolate-covered raisins. Hope this helps. Thanks, Febe!!!
Going back to my attempt…
Failed.
Sana 12nn na. I just want to be in the resort, take a short nap and spend time with my teammates.
We all deserve this break. I’m so happy that our plans to do this finally pushed through.
Shoot! 4.57am pa lang. 7 hours pa. Waaaaah...
Monday, September 29, 2008
like i said "goodbye"
I just sent one of my very good friends the longest email we’ve ever shared together yet. We no longer get in touch with each other the way we used to or wanted to. I guess, that’s most adults become – they drift apart from those deemed closest to them even without the intention of doing so. We all just “grow up”, I guess.
The email is just one of those usual emails we sent in the past, only longer. I responded to his not-so-usual long email asking me how I was doing and filling me in on how he was living his very busy life. I gave him a summary of how simple my life is, my recent fears, dreams and ambitions (sorry, I’m not observing parallelism here. =P) and what’s coming up. I told him how I missed hanging out with him and wish that we could spend time together soon, just like before.
After I finished typing my email, rereading it gave me a sense of sadness, like I was saying goodbye. I somehow feel like I’m not going to see him ever again and that we will only be just mere impressions of each other’s pasts.
My relationship with him is a roller coaster ride, or was, since I finally found my peace – my purpose in his life. I used to think I would make us happy if we became more than friends. But the tears and the pain are enough to make me realize that I was wrong. The present proves that life has something different in store for us then. I’m glad that we are what we are now. We have our own lives to live but we are still part of each other’s lives – no matter what.
But I feel that we’re drifting apart. His dreams are taking him away from me but who am I to stop him from reaching another milestone in his life? I knew it when I first met him that he was going places and now he is beginning to take that much-awaited journey. It was inevitable but why does it still take me by surprise?
I’m waiting for his response. Maybe his words will make me feel better, comfort me and assure me that he will always be there. Or he will take my email seriously and not respond at all. Or take my email seriously and give me a piece of his mind to shut me up.
I just hope he responds soon and make things clearer for me. I wish this is one of these days when you feel down without reason. I hate feeling like this towards my friends. I should be their personal pep squad, biggest fan, etc, etc.
Where did this all begin?
The email is just one of those usual emails we sent in the past, only longer. I responded to his not-so-usual long email asking me how I was doing and filling me in on how he was living his very busy life. I gave him a summary of how simple my life is, my recent fears, dreams and ambitions (sorry, I’m not observing parallelism here. =P) and what’s coming up. I told him how I missed hanging out with him and wish that we could spend time together soon, just like before.
After I finished typing my email, rereading it gave me a sense of sadness, like I was saying goodbye. I somehow feel like I’m not going to see him ever again and that we will only be just mere impressions of each other’s pasts.
My relationship with him is a roller coaster ride, or was, since I finally found my peace – my purpose in his life. I used to think I would make us happy if we became more than friends. But the tears and the pain are enough to make me realize that I was wrong. The present proves that life has something different in store for us then. I’m glad that we are what we are now. We have our own lives to live but we are still part of each other’s lives – no matter what.
But I feel that we’re drifting apart. His dreams are taking him away from me but who am I to stop him from reaching another milestone in his life? I knew it when I first met him that he was going places and now he is beginning to take that much-awaited journey. It was inevitable but why does it still take me by surprise?
I’m waiting for his response. Maybe his words will make me feel better, comfort me and assure me that he will always be there. Or he will take my email seriously and not respond at all. Or take my email seriously and give me a piece of his mind to shut me up.
I just hope he responds soon and make things clearer for me. I wish this is one of these days when you feel down without reason. I hate feeling like this towards my friends. I should be their personal pep squad, biggest fan, etc, etc.
Where did this all begin?
Saturday, September 27, 2008
The Man Who Can't Be Moved
The song that I don’t get tired of hearing over and over again these days is: The Script’s “The Man Who Can’t Be Moved”.
I just think that the song is so hopelessly romantic (though sorta cheesy but it won’t stop you from loving the song).
The Man Who Can’t be Moved
The Script
Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag. I'm not gonna move,
Got some words on cardboard got your picture in my hand,
Saying if you see this girl can you tell her where I am,
Some try to hand me money they don't understand,
I'm not... broke I'm just a broken hearted man,
I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do,
How can I move on when I've been in love with you...
Coz if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'd come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.
So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.
Policeman says son you can't stay here,
I said there's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year,
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows,
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go.
Coz if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'd come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.
So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.
I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.
People talk about the guy
Who’s waiting on a girl...
Oohoohwoo
There are no holes in his shoes
But a big hole in his world...
Hmmmm
Maybe I'll get famous as man who can't be moved,
And maybe you won't mean to but you'll see me on the news,
And you'll come running to the corner...
Cos you'll know it's just for you
I'm the man who can't be moved
I'm the man who can't be moved...
Coz if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'd come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.
[Repeat in background]
So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.
I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.
Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag not I'm not gonna move.
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THE BAND: The Script is a band from Ireland composed of Danny O’Donaghue (who is super cute, by the way), Mark Sheehan and Glen Power. They say their music is “a whole new brand of Celtic Soul, blending hiphop lyrical flow with pop melodiousness, state-of-the-art R'n'B production with anthemic rock dynamics, classic song construction with gritty contemporary narratives.” But to sum it all up, people say that they are the best band next to U2. Of course, this claim may cause a stir among the U2 fans but I’m sure this statement was not to show disrespect to the legendary band. This is may be the best way they can think to recognize the talent and contribution this Irish trio can bring to our generation and the others to come.
I just think that the song is so hopelessly romantic (though sorta cheesy but it won’t stop you from loving the song).
The Script
Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag. I'm not gonna move,
Got some words on cardboard got your picture in my hand,
Saying if you see this girl can you tell her where I am,
Some try to hand me money they don't understand,
I'm not... broke I'm just a broken hearted man,
I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do,
How can I move on when I've been in love with you...
Coz if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'd come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.
So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.
Policeman says son you can't stay here,
I said there's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year,
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows,
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go.
Coz if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'd come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.
So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.
I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.
People talk about the guy
Who’s waiting on a girl...
Oohoohwoo
There are no holes in his shoes
But a big hole in his world...
Hmmmm
Maybe I'll get famous as man who can't be moved,
And maybe you won't mean to but you'll see me on the news,
And you'll come running to the corner...
Cos you'll know it's just for you
I'm the man who can't be moved
I'm the man who can't be moved...
Coz if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'd come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.
[Repeat in background]
So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.
I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.
Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag not I'm not gonna move.
THE BAND: The Script is a band from Ireland composed of Danny O’Donaghue (who is super cute, by the way), Mark Sheehan and Glen Power. They say their music is “a whole new brand of Celtic Soul, blending hiphop lyrical flow with pop melodiousness, state-of-the-art R'n'B production with anthemic rock dynamics, classic song construction with gritty contemporary narratives.” But to sum it all up, people say that they are the best band next to U2. Of course, this claim may cause a stir among the U2 fans but I’m sure this statement was not to show disrespect to the legendary band. This is may be the best way they can think to recognize the talent and contribution this Irish trio can bring to our generation and the others to come.
"She won coz she's smart." So what?!
We were watching The Sweet Life last night. Lucy and Wilma have former beauty queens as guests.
They are indeed beautiful but fortunately, they are not full of themselves. After their respective pageants, they found their greater purpose in life – helping others. I just wonder if they ever get tired of feeling the need to always look beautiful and presentable and almost perfect – even while doing things that require less attention to their looks.
I have never really paid close attention to my looks except on special occasions. I think one of the reasons why I really decided to leave my band was that I grew tired taking care of myself, my looks and my clothes all of the time. I like feeling pretty (take note: FEELING) when I want to, not because people expect me to look good.
I have my own share of pageant moments. And they are wonderful experiences that did not only helped me to be lady-like (Ows?!), but also made me see things in a deeper perspective. During the pageants, I was surrounded by girls who were really more beautiful than I am. Their presence made me feel wrong about joining the pageants, but I realized that we were all blessed in different ways. I thought that I just have to make use of what I have and make the people see the best in me. (OMG, I’m so like eew. =P)
I ended up winning the two titles (for real!) but I heard people say that I actually won because I’m smart. My friends would take it as a hard blow to my ego, but I took it as a compliment – a mighty good one.
Not a lot of people are blessed to have common sense, knowledge, sense of humor and personality. And I think being smart is a balance of these things. I know, that not a lot of people were born beautiful and gorgeous, but I think we now have cosmetic surgery as the answer to our hunger for perfection and beauty.
“Kung gusto kong gumanda, gagamitin ko ang talino ko para magkaroon ako ng perang pangpaganda ko.” A friend would say with pride.
Somewhat familiar when a question was asked in a beauty pageant.
Q: “Which do you prefer – to be smart, to be rich or to be beautiful? And why?”
A: “I want to be smart because if I’m smart, then I can be rich. And if I’m rich then I can be beautiful. Thank you.”
Bravoooo!!!
So if those people thought that my "being smart" was reason enough for me to win the pageants, then I THANK YOU.
They are indeed beautiful but fortunately, they are not full of themselves. After their respective pageants, they found their greater purpose in life – helping others. I just wonder if they ever get tired of feeling the need to always look beautiful and presentable and almost perfect – even while doing things that require less attention to their looks.
I have never really paid close attention to my looks except on special occasions. I think one of the reasons why I really decided to leave my band was that I grew tired taking care of myself, my looks and my clothes all of the time. I like feeling pretty (take note: FEELING) when I want to, not because people expect me to look good.
I have my own share of pageant moments. And they are wonderful experiences that did not only helped me to be lady-like (Ows?!), but also made me see things in a deeper perspective. During the pageants, I was surrounded by girls who were really more beautiful than I am. Their presence made me feel wrong about joining the pageants, but I realized that we were all blessed in different ways. I thought that I just have to make use of what I have and make the people see the best in me. (OMG, I’m so like eew. =P)
I ended up winning the two titles (for real!) but I heard people say that I actually won because I’m smart. My friends would take it as a hard blow to my ego, but I took it as a compliment – a mighty good one.
Not a lot of people are blessed to have common sense, knowledge, sense of humor and personality. And I think being smart is a balance of these things. I know, that not a lot of people were born beautiful and gorgeous, but I think we now have cosmetic surgery as the answer to our hunger for perfection and beauty.
“Kung gusto kong gumanda, gagamitin ko ang talino ko para magkaroon ako ng perang pangpaganda ko.” A friend would say with pride.
Somewhat familiar when a question was asked in a beauty pageant.
Q: “Which do you prefer – to be smart, to be rich or to be beautiful? And why?”
A: “I want to be smart because if I’m smart, then I can be rich. And if I’m rich then I can be beautiful. Thank you.”
Bravoooo!!!
So if those people thought that my "being smart" was reason enough for me to win the pageants, then I THANK YOU.
Survivor Philippines Update
Emerson, the sewing machine technician was the second castaway to be voted off the 1st Survivor Philippines.
I knew he wouldn’t last long after revealing his cunning strategies too early in the competition. Being a smart ass and a cocky jerk won’t really get you anywhere. He may not be that kind of a person in real life, still he showed the world that he has to the tendency to be one even when it is not called for.
Jace was super-HOT in the last immunity challenge. The wounds in his knuckles acquired when digging for the Thai pillow made him more manly. Hahaha… Kiko was surprised at the Jace’s betrayal during a one-on-one bout but hey it is Survivor. OUTWIT. OUTPLAY. OUTLAST. Remember?!
I’m just sad that two of my favorite castaways, Kiko and Jace are not in good terms after that challenge. Hopefully, Kiko will soon accept the fact that this is a competition and you have to play the game the way you know it when it is for the security of your tribe.
Oh well, guess this makes the first Survivor Philippines all the more exciting. This competition may actually prove that we are no different from one another. Trivial distinction such as race, color and faith, will no longer be deemed as important when people are stranded in an island stripped off of all life's comforts. It just all boils down to human nature and instinct to survive.
Moving
Call me a wanderer and I won’t mind because we’re moving to a new place – again – my second time this year. Yup but this time I’m very excited since I’ll be living with my two siblings, RJ (and his family, Kate and Kmart) and Josine.
Although our soon-to-be former landlady is still giving us a hard time with her poor-concocted defense to get money from us, I don’t think anyone can dampen my spirits because I’m looking forward to spending more time with my family in our cute home that is perfect for .
One thing’s for sure, I’ll be staying there for a year as mentioned in the contract Kate signed. At least, I’m settled for 12 months, goodie since I really hate moving to a new place. A move brings a kind of stress that makes me so cranky and crazy. Fortunately, the preparation and the move itself lasts only for 3 days so everyone will survive then. =)
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Hopefully, at the end of my shift today, i will get a text from RJ/Ceasar that everything's done. =) Freedom at last from the worst landlady I've ever had. =P
Although our soon-to-be former landlady is still giving us a hard time with her poor-concocted defense to get money from us, I don’t think anyone can dampen my spirits because I’m looking forward to spending more time with my family in our cute home that is perfect for .
One thing’s for sure, I’ll be staying there for a year as mentioned in the contract Kate signed. At least, I’m settled for 12 months, goodie since I really hate moving to a new place. A move brings a kind of stress that makes me so cranky and crazy. Fortunately, the preparation and the move itself lasts only for 3 days so everyone will survive then. =)
Hopefully, at the end of my shift today, i will get a text from RJ/Ceasar that everything's done. =) Freedom at last from the worst landlady I've ever had. =P
Patas na Laban
Minsan nakaka-disappoint manood ng mga contestants na “mahirap”. Ginagawa nila kasing dahilan ang kanilang “kahirapan” para sila ang manalo sa isang laro.
Oo, andun na ako, kaya nga sumali yung tao sa isang contest para manalo kasi hindi nila kayang kitain yun. Pero kelan naman nagkaroon ng walang karapatan ang mga “may-kaya” sa buhay na manalo dahil mas nakakaangat sila?
Napansin ko kasing madalas na mangyari sa ‘ting mga Pilipino. Siguro, ngayon lang talaga ako naiirita. Hindi ko pinapaboran ang mga mayayaman ha?! Sa katunayan,
- naniniwala ako na dapat lahat ng tao ay nakakain ng masarap tatlong beses sa isang araw
- dapat lahat ay nakakapag-aral
- dapat lahat ay may trabaho na may sahod na sapat sa kaniyang pamilya
- dapat lahat ay may tirahan na maayos at ligtas
- dapat lahat ay may kakayahang magpatingin at magpagamot
Pero hindi ko maiwasang mainis bilang isang tagapamasid.
Nanonood ako minsan ng Wowowee, sa segment nila na “Hep Hep Hooray”. Dalawang contestant na lang natitira at kelangan nang malaman kung sino ang tutuloy sa Jackpot portion kung saan may chance na manalo ng hanggang Php80,000. Ang isa ay isang Russian na babae na nagbabakasyon lang dito sa Pilipinas at ang isa naman ay middle aged na babae na halata mong kapos sa buhay. Siyempre, gusto kong manalo yung matanda kaso nawalan ako nang gana ng bigla niyang kausapin yung babaeng Russian.
“Let me win. You’re rich.” Pabalbal na sabi ng matanda sa Russian.
Na sinagot naman nang maayos ng Russian, “No. This is a game. You play fair and square.”
Nagulat talaga ako. Nahiya ako para sa matanda. Hindi naman nakakahiya na ipaalam mo sa lahat na kelangan mo ng pera. Lahat naman tayo kelangan nun eh. Pero isang laro ang sinalihan mo – masayang laro, hindi charitable institution.
Ganoon din ang nangyari sa PBB Teen Edition. Maraming housemates at guardians ang gustong tanggalin si Robi Domingo dahil mayaman na daw siya at hindi na raw niya kelangan ng pera. Atenista si Robi. Class Valedictorian pa ng graduating class niya. Pero ang dahilan niya kaya siya sumali sa PBB nun ay gusto raw niyang magkaroon ng sariling pera.
Pero nangibabaw sa mga tao na mas deserving manalo si EJ kasi mahirap lang siya kahit hindi naman talaga siya napansin sa PBB. Marami akong kakilalang nag-isip na si Robi talaga ang nanalo at minanipula na lang ang mga boto para mas matuwa ang mga tao pag mahirap ang nanalo. >=(
Akala ko ganon din ang mangyayari sa unang tribal council ng Survivor Philippines. Natalo ang NAAK tribe sa kauna-unahang immunity challenge. Habang papalapit ang tribal council, kanya-kanya nang pagbuo ng alyansa ang mga kapwa castaways. Hindi ko na gusto si Emerson (sewing machine technician), nakikitaan ko na siya ng pagiging traydor. Bumuo agad siya ng lihim na alyansa with Chev (former GRO, present ukay-ukay owner), kasama ang iba pang Bisaya at ng kasunduang si JC (basketball player ng San Sebastian) ang iboboto dahil mayaman naman daw ito. Tinanong pa ni Chev si JC kung anong gagawin niya pag nanalo ang lalaki eh may kaya naman daw siya at hindi kawalan sa kanya kung maalis man siya sa isla.
Sa huli, si Chev ang first castaway to be voted off the island. Ang dahilan ng mga teammates niya: hindi siya marunong makipag-cooperate sa team during the immunity challenge.
Haaay, ano ba? Laro itong sinalihan ninyo? Kung gusto ng mga producers na mahirap na tao lang ang dapat manalo, eh di sana ni-require talaga nila na mahirap lang ang sumali. Hindi katwiran na porke’t mayaman ang tao eh wala na siyang karapatan na magwagi sa isang paligsahan. Katulad ng baluktot na katwiran na porke’t mahirap ka eh wala ka nang pag-asang magtagumpay sa buhay.
Uulitin ko, hindi ako pumapanig sa mga mayayaman. Ang sa akin lang eh sana pag sumali tayo sa mga paligsahan, huwag nating gawing batayan ang estado ng buhay ng isang tao kung karapat-dapat ba siyang manalo. Lahat ng paligsahan ay may hinihingi o hinahanap na katangian sa bawat kalahok at yun dapat ang manatiling batayan ng mga ito.
Oo, andun na ako, kaya nga sumali yung tao sa isang contest para manalo kasi hindi nila kayang kitain yun. Pero kelan naman nagkaroon ng walang karapatan ang mga “may-kaya” sa buhay na manalo dahil mas nakakaangat sila?
Napansin ko kasing madalas na mangyari sa ‘ting mga Pilipino. Siguro, ngayon lang talaga ako naiirita. Hindi ko pinapaboran ang mga mayayaman ha?! Sa katunayan,
- naniniwala ako na dapat lahat ng tao ay nakakain ng masarap tatlong beses sa isang araw
- dapat lahat ay nakakapag-aral
- dapat lahat ay may trabaho na may sahod na sapat sa kaniyang pamilya
- dapat lahat ay may tirahan na maayos at ligtas
- dapat lahat ay may kakayahang magpatingin at magpagamot
Pero hindi ko maiwasang mainis bilang isang tagapamasid.
Nanonood ako minsan ng Wowowee, sa segment nila na “Hep Hep Hooray”. Dalawang contestant na lang natitira at kelangan nang malaman kung sino ang tutuloy sa Jackpot portion kung saan may chance na manalo ng hanggang Php80,000. Ang isa ay isang Russian na babae na nagbabakasyon lang dito sa Pilipinas at ang isa naman ay middle aged na babae na halata mong kapos sa buhay. Siyempre, gusto kong manalo yung matanda kaso nawalan ako nang gana ng bigla niyang kausapin yung babaeng Russian.
“Let me win. You’re rich.” Pabalbal na sabi ng matanda sa Russian.
Na sinagot naman nang maayos ng Russian, “No. This is a game. You play fair and square.”
Nagulat talaga ako. Nahiya ako para sa matanda. Hindi naman nakakahiya na ipaalam mo sa lahat na kelangan mo ng pera. Lahat naman tayo kelangan nun eh. Pero isang laro ang sinalihan mo – masayang laro, hindi charitable institution.
Ganoon din ang nangyari sa PBB Teen Edition. Maraming housemates at guardians ang gustong tanggalin si Robi Domingo dahil mayaman na daw siya at hindi na raw niya kelangan ng pera. Atenista si Robi. Class Valedictorian pa ng graduating class niya. Pero ang dahilan niya kaya siya sumali sa PBB nun ay gusto raw niyang magkaroon ng sariling pera.
Pero nangibabaw sa mga tao na mas deserving manalo si EJ kasi mahirap lang siya kahit hindi naman talaga siya napansin sa PBB. Marami akong kakilalang nag-isip na si Robi talaga ang nanalo at minanipula na lang ang mga boto para mas matuwa ang mga tao pag mahirap ang nanalo. >=(
Akala ko ganon din ang mangyayari sa unang tribal council ng Survivor Philippines. Natalo ang NAAK tribe sa kauna-unahang immunity challenge. Habang papalapit ang tribal council, kanya-kanya nang pagbuo ng alyansa ang mga kapwa castaways. Hindi ko na gusto si Emerson (sewing machine technician), nakikitaan ko na siya ng pagiging traydor. Bumuo agad siya ng lihim na alyansa with Chev (former GRO, present ukay-ukay owner), kasama ang iba pang Bisaya at ng kasunduang si JC (basketball player ng San Sebastian) ang iboboto dahil mayaman naman daw ito. Tinanong pa ni Chev si JC kung anong gagawin niya pag nanalo ang lalaki eh may kaya naman daw siya at hindi kawalan sa kanya kung maalis man siya sa isla.
Sa huli, si Chev ang first castaway to be voted off the island. Ang dahilan ng mga teammates niya: hindi siya marunong makipag-cooperate sa team during the immunity challenge.
Haaay, ano ba? Laro itong sinalihan ninyo? Kung gusto ng mga producers na mahirap na tao lang ang dapat manalo, eh di sana ni-require talaga nila na mahirap lang ang sumali. Hindi katwiran na porke’t mayaman ang tao eh wala na siyang karapatan na magwagi sa isang paligsahan. Katulad ng baluktot na katwiran na porke’t mahirap ka eh wala ka nang pag-asang magtagumpay sa buhay.
Uulitin ko, hindi ako pumapanig sa mga mayayaman. Ang sa akin lang eh sana pag sumali tayo sa mga paligsahan, huwag nating gawing batayan ang estado ng buhay ng isang tao kung karapat-dapat ba siyang manalo. Lahat ng paligsahan ay may hinihingi o hinahanap na katangian sa bawat kalahok at yun dapat ang manatiling batayan ng mga ito.
Friday, September 19, 2008
Two thumbs up for Stephenie
I was missing in action for the past couple of weeks that I failed to even greet my significant other a very happy birthday in a very special way. (Sorry bubba.)
I have not been THAT busy. Of course, there were loads of emails to answer and stats to maintain but other than these responsibilities, I’m guilty. YES, guilty to being addictive once again to another book, I mean, books --- Stephenie Meyer’s Twilight, Eclipse, New Moon and Breaking Dawn.
Reviews said that this series of books is another Harry Potter in the making. Being a Harry Potter fan, I’m doubtful and skeptical (redundancy is the way to emphasis -- hehehe). But I guess, the fearless forecast made me curious. =)
I’m a selective reader. I don’t really read books because of the rave reviews they receive or how the movie versions made it big in the box office. I read books if they catch my interest. I believe I mentioned this in my blog before that I fancy the murder-mystery-forensic-science genre. Harry Potter was an exception and a wonderful one at that – that I didn’t mind spending serious bucks to buy them just so I would have the complete set.
Going back to the works of Stephenie Meyer, I wanted to read them to see if there is any grain of truth in the reviews but I wasn’t that curious to spend big smackaroos on them, so I decided to buy the ebooks instead on eBay. If I liked them, then I’ll buy them – someday. =)
Read all of the books and I LOVE THE STORY!!!! I love Isabella Swan but Edward Cullen was to-die-for. He really made me want to be a vampire for him. I even told Ceasar that if he ever leaves me (I already told him this when I first saw David Cook), Edward Cullen is definitely the one next in line. Edward Cullen is sooooo hot!!
Unfortunately, this could not be the next HARRY POTTER. I’m sure of it. My fearless forecast.
Still, the temporary isolation I put myself in for the last couple of weeks was WORTH it. Of course, I did miss reading Vayie’s, Tetay’s and Chico’s blogs but if the ebooks were really books, you’d understand it when I say I really found it hard to put them down. It was a different love story somehow, that it caught my attention.
I can't wait to have the real books. Stephenie Meyer’s books will definitely be in my wish list!
I have not been THAT busy. Of course, there were loads of emails to answer and stats to maintain but other than these responsibilities, I’m guilty. YES, guilty to being addictive once again to another book, I mean, books --- Stephenie Meyer’s Twilight, Eclipse, New Moon and Breaking Dawn.
Reviews said that this series of books is another Harry Potter in the making. Being a Harry Potter fan, I’m doubtful and skeptical (redundancy is the way to emphasis -- hehehe). But I guess, the fearless forecast made me curious. =)
I’m a selective reader. I don’t really read books because of the rave reviews they receive or how the movie versions made it big in the box office. I read books if they catch my interest. I believe I mentioned this in my blog before that I fancy the murder-mystery-forensic-science genre. Harry Potter was an exception and a wonderful one at that – that I didn’t mind spending serious bucks to buy them just so I would have the complete set.
Going back to the works of Stephenie Meyer, I wanted to read them to see if there is any grain of truth in the reviews but I wasn’t that curious to spend big smackaroos on them, so I decided to buy the ebooks instead on eBay. If I liked them, then I’ll buy them – someday. =)
Read all of the books and I LOVE THE STORY!!!! I love Isabella Swan but Edward Cullen was to-die-for. He really made me want to be a vampire for him. I even told Ceasar that if he ever leaves me (I already told him this when I first saw David Cook), Edward Cullen is definitely the one next in line. Edward Cullen is sooooo hot!!
Unfortunately, this could not be the next HARRY POTTER. I’m sure of it. My fearless forecast.
Still, the temporary isolation I put myself in for the last couple of weeks was WORTH it. Of course, I did miss reading Vayie’s, Tetay’s and Chico’s blogs but if the ebooks were really books, you’d understand it when I say I really found it hard to put them down. It was a different love story somehow, that it caught my attention.
I can't wait to have the real books. Stephenie Meyer’s books will definitely be in my wish list!
Friday, September 5, 2008
A day after my birthday
Happy Birthday to me!!
It’s my 28th birthday yesterday and I’m a year older, hopefully a bit wiser and happier. Hmm, I’d like to believe I am. =D
When I was a kid, I can’t imagine myself reaching this age and still feel the same. Strangely, I do. I think it’s such a slow process, you’re prepared for such changes every second and every minute of your life, that you wouldn’t notice you have changed a lot through the years.
I just usually ask Ceasar what are the recent changes he’s seen in me. The last time I asked him, he said that I am more confident than when he first met me – and I agree with him. I was such a wreck when we first met 4 years ago. I was trying to keep myself together around people but inside, I feel wounded, worthless and trapped in my past. But my being confident has a lot to do with Ceasar and the conversations we had through the years. He helped me heal and love myself despite the painful memories of a previous relationship. He made me realize that if I forgive myself, I’ll be able to let others forgive me and accept me for who I am and what I’ve been through. I’m still in this journey but I know I’m getting there.
This is the second year I’ll be celebrating my birthday without my mom around. Her death somehow ended all the urge for dependence in my system. Her thoughts and views were the standard and with her not being around anymore, I couldn’t help but feel lost and out of track. It was tougher last year but I think I can now handle the fact much better since I’ve come to realize that she will always be around. I’ve felt her presence in the toughest of times when I felt I couldn’t do it and find myself surviving them.
I’m now 28 but I wonder, what do people usually wish for and want when they turn 28?
Here is my list…
I want to be healthier. I want to start taking my Pilates seriously. I lost those excessive through it without depriving myself of food that I love to eat. I find it hard to get back to the habit after I had my wisdom tooth removed and another tooth extracted.
I also want to start jogging/running again at the UP Oval, better if it is raining. And indulge in fish balls and cheese sticks after. =P
I want to travel – to beaches, scenic spots, cities, provinces and countries – to any place where I will have the chance to savor the beauty of life, the wonders of friendships and forget the pressures and demands of the real world for a while.
I want to take more pictures. Now that I have my own digital camera, I know I can do this without limit. =P
I want to be engaged. (Ahem-ahem) Period.
I want to get a house. (attention, Pag-IBIG!!)
I want to teach again. I missed helping out kids who are having difficulty in English. I know I am not a good writer. I am even lazy. But I have this passion and interest to teach English language and grammar. Those who can’t do, TEACH! Hopefully, I will have the time and the resources to review for the LET next year.
I want to take driving lessons. I don’t have the car and I won’t have one in years but I just want to learn how to drive. I’m a coward (I have this great fear of the unknown)and this is one way for to be a bit more brave and conquer my fear.
I want to take French lessons. Learning the language is one of my frustrations. (Another would be being a cheerdancer/gymnast) This is a preparation to my other dream – to go to France and visit all the places mentioned in Dan Brown’s novel, The Da Vinci Code and try ratatouille.
I want to be a better Christian – a Christian with a purpose and has a personal relationship with God.
So far, this is what I want to start doing or accomplish this year as a 28-year-old me. These are not wishes but goals I have to act on, so I need all the discipline, courage and determination and prayers to make this year much more meaningful than the last.
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Birthday thanks:
I would like to thank everyone who remembered me and my birthday. Thanks for the emails, text messages and messages/comments (through Facebook, my blog, and Friendster) I received and continue to receive. You truly made my day super-duper extra special.
Thank you, Ceasar – for the snacks he bought me after his shift.
Thank you, Apol and Gran – for taking the time to see me on my birthday.
Thank you, Gran – for the wonderful dinner and the Kettle Corn popcorn. I also enjoyed the bus ride with you.
Thank you, Uno Animo team – for the cute messages.
Thank you, Vayie, for my Cookie’s (David Cook) pic. I love it and I’m keeping it!! Super thank you!!!
Again, to everyone, thank you for your thoughtfulness and sweet words!!
It’s my 28th birthday yesterday and I’m a year older, hopefully a bit wiser and happier. Hmm, I’d like to believe I am. =D
When I was a kid, I can’t imagine myself reaching this age and still feel the same. Strangely, I do. I think it’s such a slow process, you’re prepared for such changes every second and every minute of your life, that you wouldn’t notice you have changed a lot through the years.
I just usually ask Ceasar what are the recent changes he’s seen in me. The last time I asked him, he said that I am more confident than when he first met me – and I agree with him. I was such a wreck when we first met 4 years ago. I was trying to keep myself together around people but inside, I feel wounded, worthless and trapped in my past. But my being confident has a lot to do with Ceasar and the conversations we had through the years. He helped me heal and love myself despite the painful memories of a previous relationship. He made me realize that if I forgive myself, I’ll be able to let others forgive me and accept me for who I am and what I’ve been through. I’m still in this journey but I know I’m getting there.
This is the second year I’ll be celebrating my birthday without my mom around. Her death somehow ended all the urge for dependence in my system. Her thoughts and views were the standard and with her not being around anymore, I couldn’t help but feel lost and out of track. It was tougher last year but I think I can now handle the fact much better since I’ve come to realize that she will always be around. I’ve felt her presence in the toughest of times when I felt I couldn’t do it and find myself surviving them.
I’m now 28 but I wonder, what do people usually wish for and want when they turn 28?
Here is my list…
I want to be healthier. I want to start taking my Pilates seriously. I lost those excessive through it without depriving myself of food that I love to eat. I find it hard to get back to the habit after I had my wisdom tooth removed and another tooth extracted.
I also want to start jogging/running again at the UP Oval, better if it is raining. And indulge in fish balls and cheese sticks after. =P
I want to travel – to beaches, scenic spots, cities, provinces and countries – to any place where I will have the chance to savor the beauty of life, the wonders of friendships and forget the pressures and demands of the real world for a while.
I want to take more pictures. Now that I have my own digital camera, I know I can do this without limit. =P
I want to be engaged. (Ahem-ahem) Period.
I want to get a house. (attention, Pag-IBIG!!)
I want to teach again. I missed helping out kids who are having difficulty in English. I know I am not a good writer. I am even lazy. But I have this passion and interest to teach English language and grammar. Those who can’t do, TEACH! Hopefully, I will have the time and the resources to review for the LET next year.
I want to take driving lessons. I don’t have the car and I won’t have one in years but I just want to learn how to drive. I’m a coward (I have this great fear of the unknown)and this is one way for to be a bit more brave and conquer my fear.
I want to take French lessons. Learning the language is one of my frustrations. (Another would be being a cheerdancer/gymnast) This is a preparation to my other dream – to go to France and visit all the places mentioned in Dan Brown’s novel, The Da Vinci Code and try ratatouille.
I want to be a better Christian – a Christian with a purpose and has a personal relationship with God.
So far, this is what I want to start doing or accomplish this year as a 28-year-old me. These are not wishes but goals I have to act on, so I need all the discipline, courage and determination and prayers to make this year much more meaningful than the last.
Birthday thanks:
I would like to thank everyone who remembered me and my birthday. Thanks for the emails, text messages and messages/comments (through Facebook, my blog, and Friendster) I received and continue to receive. You truly made my day super-duper extra special.
Thank you, Ceasar – for the snacks he bought me after his shift.
Thank you, Apol and Gran – for taking the time to see me on my birthday.
Thank you, Gran – for the wonderful dinner and the Kettle Corn popcorn. I also enjoyed the bus ride with you.
Thank you, Uno Animo team – for the cute messages.
Thank you, Vayie, for my Cookie’s (David Cook) pic. I love it and I’m keeping it!! Super thank you!!!
Again, to everyone, thank you for your thoughtfulness and sweet words!!
Monday, September 1, 2008
birthdays!!!
It’s the start of September – my favorite month! I just want to greet all the people I know who were conceived during the holidays and were born in this special month of September.
September 1 – L.A., Kuya Dom and Jowell
September 2 – Tita Precy (Edgran's mom)
September 3 – Alex
September 4 – Me, Doie, Alvin Lobo
September 5 – Tito Jun (Apol's dad)
September 6 – Genere
September 8 – Bubi Pachiez
September 13 – Kuya Raul
September 17 – Diana, Meland
September 21 – Edgran, Gerard
September 25 – Beth
September 28 – Mark Jay
Happy Birthday to all of us!!!
September 1 – L.A., Kuya Dom and Jowell
September 2 – Tita Precy (Edgran's mom)
September 3 – Alex
September 4 – Me, Doie, Alvin Lobo
September 5 – Tito Jun (Apol's dad)
September 6 – Genere
September 8 – Bubi Pachiez
September 13 – Kuya Raul
September 17 – Diana, Meland
September 21 – Edgran, Gerard
September 25 – Beth
September 28 – Mark Jay
Saturday, August 30, 2008
Apol's home!!
I received a text message yesterday from Apol, one of my best friends of 14 years that she has finally come home. Yay!!! It’s been 10 months since we last saw her and now that she’s back, I can’t wait to spend time with her before she’s off again.
I just hope she stays here long enough to celebrate my and Gran’s birthday.
Hey Apol, welcome back!! Miss you so much, see you next week. Mwahuggs!!
I just hope she stays here long enough to celebrate my and Gran’s birthday.
Hey Apol, welcome back!! Miss you so much, see you next week. Mwahuggs!!
Friday, August 29, 2008
my new camera
Yay!!
I finally bought my new digital camera (a gorgeous black Sony Cyber Shot DSC-W110) last Wednesday. (It's actually a gift from galanteng Ceasar.)
Thanks, pupish!
I can't describe it -- it's beyond words, it's a dream come true. (Okei, lemme just borrow Kmart's word when he saw the camera: WOOOOW!!)
can't wait to take pictures of my family and friends. =D
I finally bought my new digital camera (a gorgeous black Sony Cyber Shot DSC-W110) last Wednesday. (It's actually a gift from galanteng Ceasar.)
Thanks, pupish!
I can't describe it -- it's beyond words, it's a dream come true. (Okei, lemme just borrow Kmart's word when he saw the camera: WOOOOW!!)
can't wait to take pictures of my family and friends. =D
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
yummy pancake!!
I just want to thank Tetay for the Jollibee pancake treat she gave me, Cai, Vayie and Kim.
Thank you, Tetay!! Ang sarap ng pagkaing libre. Hehehe... It was so generous and sweet of you.
Lahat kami nakangiti ngayon habang inaantay ang oras ng pananghalian.
Thank you, Tetay!! Ang sarap ng pagkaing libre. Hehehe... It was so generous and sweet of you.
Lahat kami nakangiti ngayon habang inaantay ang oras ng pananghalian.
Saturday, August 23, 2008
bummer
I'm still stuck in the 7am-4pm shift.
Super bummer!
Tetay and I celebrated the change (we thought we're back to our 6am-3pm shift) prematurely and so I came to work with disappointment after reading Dustin's text message this morning.
Let's find something good in this.
Super bummer!
Tetay and I celebrated the change (we thought we're back to our 6am-3pm shift) prematurely and so I came to work with disappointment after reading Dustin's text message this morning.
Let's find something good in this.
MILEY [my' - ley]/[my' - ly]
**how painful it is to feel something so powerful when you know you are powerless? How special is someone for one to willingly feel the pain the memory of that someone brings? How painful it is to not know whether you should let go or wait? How far are you willing to go to know if that love is the ONE?
Read on...
I sit here and I remember you once again – how I felt about you, how you took my breath away with every touch and kiss. I remember them like it was just yesterday. I remember the dreams we shared – believing that things will be the way we want them to be. I remember the pain as vivid as it was when you left me without anything to hold on to while I wait for the time when you come back to me.
I tried to let go of this unreciprocated love, but I was a fool to think that everything will be the same when the time comes. I tried to ignore your words that linger in my thoughts but they come as fresh as the moment they came out of your sweet lips. I tried not to miss your touch but it is still as warm as the first time you touched me. I suffer every time I’m reminded of your memories, yet I’d rather be hurt than not remember you at all.
I wish I would die and live again and find you at the right place and at the right time. I wish I can hold your hand without doubt. I wish I could caress your lips without fear of losing you ever again. I wish I could hug you without guilt because I now know you are mine. I wish I could stay with you forever and until I breathe my last breath.
But all of these are just wishes – wishes that I know will never come true; false hopes for things that I know could never be. I know these are mere souvenirs of what we used to have.
Yet, I am here waiting – waiting for Fate to change it for me, for us – waiting for you to turn around and come back to me and take me in your arms and tell me that you love me. I am here waiting for you to find the strength to take that leap of faith and be with me; waiting for you to realize that I AM WORTH IT, because I know I love you the way no one has loved you before.
You don’t know this, you will never know this. I want you to see it, find it, realize it on your own. I wait for you in silence and in agony and in longing, I hope you realize it before it’s too late, before I’m too tired, too hopeless to love.
MILEY
Read on...
I sit here and I remember you once again – how I felt about you, how you took my breath away with every touch and kiss. I remember them like it was just yesterday. I remember the dreams we shared – believing that things will be the way we want them to be. I remember the pain as vivid as it was when you left me without anything to hold on to while I wait for the time when you come back to me.
I tried to let go of this unreciprocated love, but I was a fool to think that everything will be the same when the time comes. I tried to ignore your words that linger in my thoughts but they come as fresh as the moment they came out of your sweet lips. I tried not to miss your touch but it is still as warm as the first time you touched me. I suffer every time I’m reminded of your memories, yet I’d rather be hurt than not remember you at all.
I wish I would die and live again and find you at the right place and at the right time. I wish I can hold your hand without doubt. I wish I could caress your lips without fear of losing you ever again. I wish I could hug you without guilt because I now know you are mine. I wish I could stay with you forever and until I breathe my last breath.
But all of these are just wishes – wishes that I know will never come true; false hopes for things that I know could never be. I know these are mere souvenirs of what we used to have.
Yet, I am here waiting – waiting for Fate to change it for me, for us – waiting for you to turn around and come back to me and take me in your arms and tell me that you love me. I am here waiting for you to find the strength to take that leap of faith and be with me; waiting for you to realize that I AM WORTH IT, because I know I love you the way no one has loved you before.
You don’t know this, you will never know this. I want you to see it, find it, realize it on your own. I wait for you in silence and in agony and in longing, I hope you realize it before it’s too late, before I’m too tired, too hopeless to love.
MILEY
Friday, August 22, 2008
favorite quotes
"When you know better, you do better." - Maia Angelou
"Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn't. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted." - Morrie, Tuesdays with Morrie
I barely know you. I don't know your dad's first name, I don't know if you ever wore braces, or contacts, or glasses and I have no idea how you came to be a wedding planner, Mary. But I do know the curves of your face. And I know every fleck of gold in your eyes. I know that the night at the park was the best time I've ever had. - Steve (Matthew McConnaughey), The Wedding Planner
"It is our choices Harry, that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities." - Albus Percival Wulfric Brian Dumbledore, Chamber of Secrets
"We can do no great things; only small things with great love." -Mother Teresa
"Love means never having to say you're sorry." -Jenny Cavilleri to Oliver Barrett IV, Erich Segal's LOVE STORY
"Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. But not knowing which to do is the worse kind of suffering.” - Paulo Coelho
"You have to take risks. We will only understand the miracle of life fully when we allow the unexpected to happen.” - Paulo Coelho
"The moment of that kiss contained every happy moment I had ever lived.” - Paulo Coelho
"When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.” - Paulo Coelho
“One is loved because one is loved. No reason is needed for loving.” - Paulo Coelho
"Everyone seems to have a clear idea of how other people should lead their lives, but none about his or her own." -Paulo Coelho
"I think that when we look for love courageously, it reveals itself, and we wind up attracting even more love. If one person really wants us, everyone does. But if we're alone, we become even more alone. Life is strange.” - Paulo Coelho
"Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn't. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted." - Morrie, Tuesdays with Morrie
I barely know you. I don't know your dad's first name, I don't know if you ever wore braces, or contacts, or glasses and I have no idea how you came to be a wedding planner, Mary. But I do know the curves of your face. And I know every fleck of gold in your eyes. I know that the night at the park was the best time I've ever had. - Steve (Matthew McConnaughey), The Wedding Planner
"It is our choices Harry, that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities." - Albus Percival Wulfric Brian Dumbledore, Chamber of Secrets
"We can do no great things; only small things with great love." -Mother Teresa
"Love means never having to say you're sorry." -Jenny Cavilleri to Oliver Barrett IV, Erich Segal's LOVE STORY
"Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. But not knowing which to do is the worse kind of suffering.” - Paulo Coelho
"You have to take risks. We will only understand the miracle of life fully when we allow the unexpected to happen.” - Paulo Coelho
"The moment of that kiss contained every happy moment I had ever lived.” - Paulo Coelho
"When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.” - Paulo Coelho
“One is loved because one is loved. No reason is needed for loving.” - Paulo Coelho
"Everyone seems to have a clear idea of how other people should lead their lives, but none about his or her own." -Paulo Coelho
"I think that when we look for love courageously, it reveals itself, and we wind up attracting even more love. If one person really wants us, everyone does. But if we're alone, we become even more alone. Life is strange.” - Paulo Coelho
Hitch
RJ and Kmart dropped by at the house last night. I was reading Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix but found that it would be almost impossible to do this with much concentration as Kmart continues to surprise me with new things that he learned so I decided to just surf the TV for something light to watch and came across the movie, Hitch.
Don’t worry, this is not one of my boring entries where I’m pretending to be a movie/book critic. (wannabe me!! =P) I just want to share this line in the movie that would be a perfect guide for us to live our life to the fullest and see life as a journey to happiness, contentment and fulfillment.
“Life is not the amount of breaths you take; it’s the moments that take your breath away.”
Yun lang!!
Don’t worry, this is not one of my boring entries where I’m pretending to be a movie/book critic. (wannabe me!! =P) I just want to share this line in the movie that would be a perfect guide for us to live our life to the fullest and see life as a journey to happiness, contentment and fulfillment.
Yun lang!!
an article to inspire and empower us
I just want to share this article that I received in my Yahoo email. I find this (article)very inspiring and empowering for people (like me) who want to let go of the past pains that continue to haunt them – hopefully through this, we will find the strength to forgive ourselves and the acceptance that we deserve to be happy despite the mistakes we’ve made. We cannot find this overnight but to see that flicker of hope that we can SOMEDAY is I think a BIG step towards that goal.
It's time to let go. It's time to move on.
Let It Go....
by Bishop T. D. Jakes
There are people who can walk away from you and hear me when I tell you this - when people can walk away from you: let them walk. I don't want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone.
When people can walk away from you let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left. The Bible said that, "they came out from us that it might be manifest that they were not for us. For had they been of us, no doubt they would have continued with us." (1John 2:19).
People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you can get super glue and you can't make them stay. Let them go. And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person it just means that their part in the story is over. And you've got to know when people's part in your story is over so that you don't keep trying to raise the dead.
You've got to know when it's dead. You've got to know when it's over. Let me tell you something. I've got the gift of goodbye. It's not that I'm hateful, it's that I'm faithful, and I know what ever God means for me to have He will give it to me. And if it takes too much sweat I don't need it. Stop begging people to stay. Let them go!!!
LET IT GO!!!
If you are holding on to something that doesn't belong to you and was never intended for your life, then you need to...Let it go!
If you are holding on to past hurts and pains... Let it go!
If someone can't treat you right, love you back, and see your worth...Let it go!
If someone has angered you...Let it go!
If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge...Let it go!
If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction...Let it go!
If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or talents...Let it go!
If you have a bad attitude...Let it go!
If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better...Let it go!
If you're stuck in the past and God is trying to take you to a new level in Him...Let it go!
If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship...Let it go!
If you keep trying to help someone who won't even try to help themselves...Let it go!
If you're feeling depressed and stressed...Let it go!
If there is a particular situation that you are so used to handling yourself and God is saying "Take you hands off of it," then you need to...Let it go!
Let the past be the past. Forget the former things. God is doing a new thing for you! LET IT GO!!!
Get right or get left...think about it, then...LET IT GO!!!
Let God's love, peace, and blessings be with you always...
The past cannot be changed...the future is still in your power!
It's time to let go. It's time to move on.
by Bishop T. D. Jakes
There are people who can walk away from you and hear me when I tell you this - when people can walk away from you: let them walk. I don't want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone.
When people can walk away from you let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left. The Bible said that, "they came out from us that it might be manifest that they were not for us. For had they been of us, no doubt they would have continued with us." (1John 2:19).
People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you can get super glue and you can't make them stay. Let them go. And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person it just means that their part in the story is over. And you've got to know when people's part in your story is over so that you don't keep trying to raise the dead.
You've got to know when it's dead. You've got to know when it's over. Let me tell you something. I've got the gift of goodbye. It's not that I'm hateful, it's that I'm faithful, and I know what ever God means for me to have He will give it to me. And if it takes too much sweat I don't need it. Stop begging people to stay. Let them go!!!
LET IT GO!!!
If you are holding on to something that doesn't belong to you and was never intended for your life, then you need to...Let it go!
If you are holding on to past hurts and pains... Let it go!
If someone can't treat you right, love you back, and see your worth...Let it go!
If someone has angered you...Let it go!
If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge...Let it go!
If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction...Let it go!
If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or talents...Let it go!
If you have a bad attitude...Let it go!
If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better...Let it go!
If you're stuck in the past and God is trying to take you to a new level in Him...Let it go!
If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship...Let it go!
If you keep trying to help someone who won't even try to help themselves...Let it go!
If you're feeling depressed and stressed...Let it go!
If there is a particular situation that you are so used to handling yourself and God is saying "Take you hands off of it," then you need to...Let it go!
Let the past be the past. Forget the former things. God is doing a new thing for you! LET IT GO!!!
Get right or get left...think about it, then...LET IT GO!!!
Let God's love, peace, and blessings be with you always...
The past cannot be changed...the future is still in your power!
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
woohoo! my favorite days
Yay!! Finally, my two favorite days (well, at least for now), Wednesday and Thursday – my rest days are now here.
I will definitely take long naps because I’ve been having trouble sleeping these past nights that I only get 4 hours of sleep daily. (Painful!) I can now go back to reading the Goblet of Fire. Oh, yeah, I need to do a little bit of house cleaning. It’s my turn to cook lunch and dinner for two days since I’m homebound. I also need to have our clothes picked up by the laundry woman. Of course, I’m going to wash some of my clothes that I don’t want to be machine-washed.
No fancy plans this week as I need to stretch my budget til next pay out. Hahaha..
I will definitely take long naps because I’ve been having trouble sleeping these past nights that I only get 4 hours of sleep daily. (Painful!) I can now go back to reading the Goblet of Fire. Oh, yeah, I need to do a little bit of house cleaning. It’s my turn to cook lunch and dinner for two days since I’m homebound. I also need to have our clothes picked up by the laundry woman. Of course, I’m going to wash some of my clothes that I don’t want to be machine-washed.
No fancy plans this week as I need to stretch my budget til next pay out. Hahaha..
Monday, August 18, 2008
Kudos to me.. finally
Hold your thoughts, there! I'm not self-centered, egotistic or anything like it. I'm just happy today after my coaching session with my supervisor.
Got my stats for Week 1 of August (08/03-08/09), and I’m just ecstatic!! I’ve been struggling for months to get a decent number under my name. Finally!!!
FTR: 85.71 (Target 76)
Quality: 85.00 (Target 80)
EPH: 8.20 (Target 7)
**to some, these numbers may not mean anything, but to me, these are the FRUITS of HARD (and I mean, haaaaard) labor, man. Hahaha…
Can I get a “Woot! Woot!”?!! =P
surprise treat from bubi
Sinorpresa ako ni Ceasar kahapon. =D Sinundo niya ako sa office at ON TIME siya para pumunta kami sa Robinson’s Galleria to have dinner in celebration of our 4th anniversary.
It was really such a pleasant surprise coz I know he really went out of his way to get there on time. He lacked sleep since Saturday coz we attended my Daddy’s 54th birthday celebration after both coming from our respective shifts.
We just walked around the mall first, just looking. I can’t really buy anything on impulse since I’m saving my money to buy my first-ever digital camera. (I have my eyes on the following: Canon Ixus 75/Ixus 80, Sony Cybershot w110 or Olympus FE320.) But it was still fun, we get to talk which we have not done much recently since the change in my schedule.
We decided to have dinner at Kenny Roger’s coz we’re both craving for roasted chicken. Di namin kasi kabisado yung mall kaya hindi na kami naghanap pa ng ibang resto na nag-se-serve ng roasted chicken. Haay, grabe busog kami. Looks can be really deceiving. Kala ko ang liit ng servings sa KR pero kakabusog din pala. After eating, we then ordered Josine’s dinner and went on window shopping.
I saw this FIC stall and I had the urge to buy their Pistachio ice cream and definitely, no regrets!! Love the taste and texture, although I would have enjoyed it more if I ate it while sitting since it kept me from checking out my favorite boutiques I saw while we were strolling.
We went to AstroWorld and found that the House DVDs and Planet Earth DVDs are both on sale. Aaarrrgh!! I’ve been wanting to buy those goodies for so long but I really find them too pricey then, until now, when all are for less than a thousand pesos each?!! That’s really a bargain – I’m going insane!! I really should make up my mind on what camera I should buy and where so I can move on to my next projects (books and DVDs).
We then went to National Bookstore and looked for any interesting book on sale, sadly none. But I think I’ll soon get a set of the Twilight series, about a vampire and a mortal in love and their struggles. It was announced this week, (days after Warner Bros. announced that The Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince movie’s debut was moved to July 2009 from November 2008 – super bummer!) that its first book’s movie version will be shown this November 2008 and was said to get the same attention as the Harry Potter series. (Of course, we have to wait and see.) I got excited when I heard that the actor who will be playing Edward Cullen’s character (the vampire) is Robert Pattinson, the same guy who played Cedric Diggory in the Goblet of Fire!! Such a hottie. =P
After rummaging through the pile of books at NBS, we realized that we have to go home since it was already half past seven and poor Josine, we have her dinner. (Bad big sister, bad!!!) We just made a stop at Le Couer de France to buy bread and off we went.
It was a tiring day from work and malling but it was worth all the energy spent. I realized that I’m blessed to have a best friend, barkada, boyfriend, confidante and critic – all rolled into my only Bubi Pachiez, Ceasar – coz we don’t get tired talking about anything under the sun, we have similar interests that keep us together and differences that make us unique and a mystery to each other.
@Ceasar: Thanks, baby for a wonderful 4th anniversary celebration! Love you!
It was really such a pleasant surprise coz I know he really went out of his way to get there on time. He lacked sleep since Saturday coz we attended my Daddy’s 54th birthday celebration after both coming from our respective shifts.
We just walked around the mall first, just looking. I can’t really buy anything on impulse since I’m saving my money to buy my first-ever digital camera. (I have my eyes on the following: Canon Ixus 75/Ixus 80, Sony Cybershot w110 or Olympus FE320.) But it was still fun, we get to talk which we have not done much recently since the change in my schedule.
We decided to have dinner at Kenny Roger’s coz we’re both craving for roasted chicken. Di namin kasi kabisado yung mall kaya hindi na kami naghanap pa ng ibang resto na nag-se-serve ng roasted chicken. Haay, grabe busog kami. Looks can be really deceiving. Kala ko ang liit ng servings sa KR pero kakabusog din pala. After eating, we then ordered Josine’s dinner and went on window shopping.
I saw this FIC stall and I had the urge to buy their Pistachio ice cream and definitely, no regrets!! Love the taste and texture, although I would have enjoyed it more if I ate it while sitting since it kept me from checking out my favorite boutiques I saw while we were strolling.
We went to AstroWorld and found that the House DVDs and Planet Earth DVDs are both on sale. Aaarrrgh!! I’ve been wanting to buy those goodies for so long but I really find them too pricey then, until now, when all are for less than a thousand pesos each?!! That’s really a bargain – I’m going insane!! I really should make up my mind on what camera I should buy and where so I can move on to my next projects (books and DVDs).
We then went to National Bookstore and looked for any interesting book on sale, sadly none. But I think I’ll soon get a set of the Twilight series, about a vampire and a mortal in love and their struggles. It was announced this week, (days after Warner Bros. announced that The Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince movie’s debut was moved to July 2009 from November 2008 – super bummer!) that its first book’s movie version will be shown this November 2008 and was said to get the same attention as the Harry Potter series. (Of course, we have to wait and see.) I got excited when I heard that the actor who will be playing Edward Cullen’s character (the vampire) is Robert Pattinson, the same guy who played Cedric Diggory in the Goblet of Fire!! Such a hottie. =P
After rummaging through the pile of books at NBS, we realized that we have to go home since it was already half past seven and poor Josine, we have her dinner. (Bad big sister, bad!!!) We just made a stop at Le Couer de France to buy bread and off we went.
It was a tiring day from work and malling but it was worth all the energy spent. I realized that I’m blessed to have a best friend, barkada, boyfriend, confidante and critic – all rolled into my only Bubi Pachiez, Ceasar – coz we don’t get tired talking about anything under the sun, we have similar interests that keep us together and differences that make us unique and a mystery to each other.
@Ceasar: Thanks, baby for a wonderful 4th anniversary celebration! Love you!
Sunday, August 17, 2008
sunnysundayremindsmeilove2read
This is my third entry for today. We’re not that busy at work, thank goodness. The number of emails that we have when we arrived this morning was manageable. (We answered the emails in two hours.) Most of us (most especially, the am shift peeps) have been really stressed out because of the high volume of emails (I don’t want to discuss the factors that I think may have caused this.) and this is a pleasant way to spend a sunny Sunday, just chillin’.
However, this kind of day makes me sometimes wish that I have the time and the smackaroos to go out and unwind. Parang hindi ka na makapagrelaks na hindi naglalabas ng pera sa panahon ngayon. That’s why I’m so happy I have my books to turn to when all else fails (or not affordable??). I get to travel different places and know different people and cultures without leaving the comforts of my room.
I admit I can spend hundreds of pesos just to buy the books that catch my attention and interest. I’m proud to be the owner of Harry Potter Books – I bought Books 3-6 (Prisoner of Azkaban, Goblet of Fire, Order of the Phoenix and The Half-Prince) on impulse but Book 1 (Sorcerer’s Stone) was given to me by Teddy Bear Joel, a friend and former teammate; Book 2 (Chamber of Secret), a Christmas gift from Marck “Baby Gurl” before he left for the US and Book 7 (The Deathly Hallows) from Graham, a friend and former product trainer who is now back in Canada studying and pimpin’ (hahaha!!). (Am I not lucky to have generous friends?). I also have books of authors, Agatha Christie, John Grisham, Sidney Sheldon, Paulo Coelho and Robert Ludlum as well as in English grammar and French.
Do you know that my dream house has its own library? Yup, true!! I love reading!!
Take note, I’m a selective reader, but the topics that interest me are quite diversed. Kaya lang mas hinahatak ang hilig ko sa mga storya na may murder-mystery and sex and violence. I just don’t know why, but I knew when I came across Agatha Christie and Sidney Sheldon when I was Grade 2, I need to read more of their works, saka na lumawak yung hilig ko sa ibang plots when I reached high school.
Haaay…
I think I’ll start saving again (after I buy a digital camera) so I can get my hands on the book entitled, An Incomplete Education, claimed to reacquaint you with the topics you probably missed and slept through in school. Matagal ko nang gustong mabili to kaya lang pag bibilhin ko na, may biglang ibang bagay na eeksena na mas kelangan na atensyon. Pagkatapos talaga ng camera, ito naman.
Haaay…
However, this kind of day makes me sometimes wish that I have the time and the smackaroos to go out and unwind. Parang hindi ka na makapagrelaks na hindi naglalabas ng pera sa panahon ngayon. That’s why I’m so happy I have my books to turn to when all else fails (or not affordable??). I get to travel different places and know different people and cultures without leaving the comforts of my room.
I admit I can spend hundreds of pesos just to buy the books that catch my attention and interest. I’m proud to be the owner of Harry Potter Books – I bought Books 3-6 (Prisoner of Azkaban, Goblet of Fire, Order of the Phoenix and The Half-Prince) on impulse but Book 1 (Sorcerer’s Stone) was given to me by Teddy Bear Joel, a friend and former teammate; Book 2 (Chamber of Secret), a Christmas gift from Marck “Baby Gurl” before he left for the US and Book 7 (The Deathly Hallows) from Graham, a friend and former product trainer who is now back in Canada studying and pimpin’ (hahaha!!). (Am I not lucky to have generous friends?). I also have books of authors, Agatha Christie, John Grisham, Sidney Sheldon, Paulo Coelho and Robert Ludlum as well as in English grammar and French.
Do you know that my dream house has its own library? Yup, true!! I love reading!!
Take note, I’m a selective reader, but the topics that interest me are quite diversed. Kaya lang mas hinahatak ang hilig ko sa mga storya na may murder-mystery and sex and violence. I just don’t know why, but I knew when I came across Agatha Christie and Sidney Sheldon when I was Grade 2, I need to read more of their works, saka na lumawak yung hilig ko sa ibang plots when I reached high school.
Haaay…
I think I’ll start saving again (after I buy a digital camera) so I can get my hands on the book entitled, An Incomplete Education, claimed to reacquaint you with the topics you probably missed and slept through in school. Matagal ko nang gustong mabili to kaya lang pag bibilhin ko na, may biglang ibang bagay na eeksena na mas kelangan na atensyon. Pagkatapos talaga ng camera, ito naman.
Haaay…
Wonderful news
Tetay’s back to work today with great news. Her mom’s mitral valve replacement surgery (last Friday) was a success. Her mom is on her way to recovery and is now allowed to eat solid food. She will be out of the hospital in a week’s time.
This is another living proof that PRAYERS move mountains. =D
This is another living proof that PRAYERS move mountains. =D
Another year for us..
It’s Bubi and babi’s 4th anniversary today. Yipee!! We almost didn’t make it today as a couple (I don’t want to remember the rough times we’ve been through) but I’m glad we did.
We don’t have any special plans today since I have a shift ‘til 4pm. We’re probably just going to eat out in one of our favorite food establishments in Diliman (either in Maginhawa or in UP) – just spend some time together really. Since we have different RDs and shifts, it has been really difficult for us to make any plans or spend time with each other the way we used to. A little blessing is still a blessing. =D
Bubba,
Thank you for another year of love and laughter. Yes, we went through a lot this year but I guess, this just means you’re stuck with me. You can never get really rid of me even if you want to. =P
I want to thank you for bringing out the best in me – I learn a lot from you everyday with simple words that you share. I appreciate the passion that you have in life, love and music. I’m proud of your generosity and your willingness to be the strength for others.
I’ve always told you that you are the main reason why we are still here – your patience and understanding make and will always a big difference.
I look forward to another year with you – as we take pleasure in seeing our dreams unfold before our very eyes, holding each other’s hands and smiling..
More food to enjoy, more places to explore, more times to treasure and more love and laughter to share.
I love you, shamumiz pumpachiez!! Happy 4th anniversary!!
Sunday, July 27, 2008
LA is back!!!
I’m now fighting the urge to take a nap here in the office while at my station. I came to work today, a rainy Sunday at 6am without much sleep. Ceasar even had to accompany me on my way to work kasi baka makatulog daw ako sa bus at lumagpas ako ng office. What a sweetheart! <3
But I think the headache I have is soooo worth it. I just had a wonderful night with my best high school buddies, LA and Gran and our beaus.
LA arrived with Genere and Tita Anna (her mom) last Thursday, July 24th. It is her second time to come and visit us from Australia. We will finally have the chance to meet her boyfriend of 6 years and fiancé, Genere.
We decided to meet up in my favorite café, Baang (pronounced as Bang) Coffee in Tomas Morato. (I suggest that you try their Black Forest and Death By Chocolate – they are really delicious but not as expensive as the other coffee shops that most of us came to love.)
Gran suggested that we have dinner at The Red Crab, not that far from the café. And it was the perfect choice for all of us. People who are really close to me know that I am not a big fan of seafoods but the dishes were awesome. I just had to try them.
We had sisig and tofu, chicharon bulaklak and calamares for our appetizers. We then indulged to seafood paella, Bacon wrapped Camaron Rebusado with Saffron Rice, Steamed Milkfish with Laing, Male crab (I had to emphasize on the gender of the crab since Gran really wanted a female one. =D) and lots of garlic rice. And my favorite: REFILLABLE ICED TEA!! Woohoo!!
The food are a bit pricey but I think they’re worth it because the place is great, the staff are very courteous and accommodating.
NEXT STOP: ZIRKOH Timog: to watch JOHN “UNIVERSAL SWEET” LAPUS’ birthday show
Genere and LA found the place too crowded and asked us if we could go some place else. Genere wanted to watch a Live Band so Gran suggested that we go to Mugen in Metrowalk instead.
AT MUGEN
I really liked the place. It was not that jampacked considering that it was a Saturday night. URBAN NATION was one of the featured bands that night and to my delight, all the bands are playing R&B songs. The night got better and better by the minute. =D
All the bands were great but I really find URBAN NATION the best since they performed most of my recent favorite songs – J. Holiday’s Suffocate, Usher’s U Remind Me, Nice n’ Slow and Love in Da Club, Chris Brown’s With You and Trey Songz’ Can’t Help But Wait. Also, I found that my friend, Paulo is the drummer of the band. I’ve always admired this kid for his talent and humility. I know that he will go places.
Once again, we had drinks and sisig (sizzling this time) while we groove to the music. We left Mugen at around 2am.
It was a wonderful evening spent with special people who I am so blessed to share my simple life and a beautiful friendship with. Too bad, Apol wasn’t able to come home around the time of LA’s visit. We would’ve a grander time with her and Darwin.
LA, Genere and Tita Anna will be leaving the Philippines on August 9 to spend the remaining 2 weeks of their holiday in Singapore and Malaysia. I really pray that they have a safe and pleasant trip going to their next stops and on their way home back to Australia.
But I think the headache I have is soooo worth it. I just had a wonderful night with my best high school buddies, LA and Gran and our beaus.
LA arrived with Genere and Tita Anna (her mom) last Thursday, July 24th. It is her second time to come and visit us from Australia. We will finally have the chance to meet her boyfriend of 6 years and fiancé, Genere.
We decided to meet up in my favorite café, Baang (pronounced as Bang) Coffee in Tomas Morato. (I suggest that you try their Black Forest and Death By Chocolate – they are really delicious but not as expensive as the other coffee shops that most of us came to love.)
Gran suggested that we have dinner at The Red Crab, not that far from the café. And it was the perfect choice for all of us. People who are really close to me know that I am not a big fan of seafoods but the dishes were awesome. I just had to try them.
We had sisig and tofu, chicharon bulaklak and calamares for our appetizers. We then indulged to seafood paella, Bacon wrapped Camaron Rebusado with Saffron Rice, Steamed Milkfish with Laing, Male crab (I had to emphasize on the gender of the crab since Gran really wanted a female one. =D) and lots of garlic rice. And my favorite: REFILLABLE ICED TEA!! Woohoo!!
The food are a bit pricey but I think they’re worth it because the place is great, the staff are very courteous and accommodating.
NEXT STOP: ZIRKOH Timog: to watch JOHN “UNIVERSAL SWEET” LAPUS’ birthday show
Genere and LA found the place too crowded and asked us if we could go some place else. Genere wanted to watch a Live Band so Gran suggested that we go to Mugen in Metrowalk instead.
I really liked the place. It was not that jampacked considering that it was a Saturday night. URBAN NATION was one of the featured bands that night and to my delight, all the bands are playing R&B songs. The night got better and better by the minute. =D
All the bands were great but I really find URBAN NATION the best since they performed most of my recent favorite songs – J. Holiday’s Suffocate, Usher’s U Remind Me, Nice n’ Slow and Love in Da Club, Chris Brown’s With You and Trey Songz’ Can’t Help But Wait. Also, I found that my friend, Paulo is the drummer of the band. I’ve always admired this kid for his talent and humility. I know that he will go places.
Once again, we had drinks and sisig (sizzling this time) while we groove to the music. We left Mugen at around 2am.
It was a wonderful evening spent with special people who I am so blessed to share my simple life and a beautiful friendship with. Too bad, Apol wasn’t able to come home around the time of LA’s visit. We would’ve a grander time with her and Darwin.
LA, Genere and Tita Anna will be leaving the Philippines on August 9 to spend the remaining 2 weeks of their holiday in Singapore and Malaysia. I really pray that they have a safe and pleasant trip going to their next stops and on their way home back to Australia.
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Another Guiness record for Sir Paeng Nepomuceno
Paeng Nepomuceno also made it to the Guiness World Records for the third time. This time for having won the most number of bowling tournaments worldwide -- 118.
He is also currently holding the record for winning four World Cups in three different decades and for being the youngest to win a world title at the age of 19. Beat that!! Hahaha..
Truly, a World Class Filipino..
He is also currently holding the record for winning four World Cups in three different decades and for being the youngest to win a world title at the age of 19. Beat that!! Hahaha..
Truly, a World Class Filipino..
David Blaine is now in the Guiness World Records
I watched Oprah last night and saw David Blaine broke the Guiness Record for the Longest Breathholding underwater that was recently made early this year.
The Old world record was for 16 minutes and 32 seconds. David Blaine's and the new world record is for 17 minutes and 4 seconds. David trained for 4 months to prepare for this attempt with the help of wordclass doctors, fitness trainers and divers.
Congratulations, David!!!
The Old world record was for 16 minutes and 32 seconds. David Blaine's and the new world record is for 17 minutes and 4 seconds. David trained for 4 months to prepare for this attempt with the help of wordclass doctors, fitness trainers and divers.
Congratulations, David!!!
Iisa Pa Lamang
Last night, I watched the pilot episode of Claudine Baretto's new teleserye, Iisa Pa Lamang. I'm not really into teleseryes but the trailer got me interested. If the trailer stayed true to the real storyline, then I'm glad that at least Filipino writers are starting to treat their target audience with maturity.
I'll try watching it for two weeks, then we'll see if it's as good as they want to show us it is.
P.S. I just need to mention that Diether Ocampo has a great body and that Gabby Concepcion looks loke he's only a few years older than Diether and Claudine.
I'll try watching it for two weeks, then we'll see if it's as good as they want to show us it is.
P.S. I just need to mention that Diether Ocampo has a great body and that Gabby Concepcion looks loke he's only a few years older than Diether and Claudine.
Miss Universe 2008
I watched the Miss Universe 2008 pageant yesterday and I was very happy with the result.
Ms. Colombia, Taliana Vargas, really had my vote from the start of the semifinals until I heard her answer the Jennifer Hawkin's question, "If you could go back in time and change a moment in your past, what would that be and why?"
She gave an answer that I consider to be the safest and laziest answer that one could give to such a question that would definitely show one's strength and humility. I was really disappointed.
That is why I considered, Ms. Venezuela's (Dayana Mendoza) answer to Louis Licari's question: "Do you believe men or women have it easier in life, and why?" her leap to the crown.
Her answer: "God made us to share and to have difference, but big difference between women and men, doesn't matter whether kind of life they live, is that men think, that they think that the faster way to got to a point is go straight. Women know that the faster way to go to a point is go to the curve and fix in every curves."
(BIG ROUND OF APPLAUSE)
Her answer uplifted the women without the degrading men, and I think that makes a true Miss Universe, focusing the strengths of one's self without higlighting the weaknesses of others. =D Amazing!! i really like her.
Ms. Colombia, Taliana Vargas, really had my vote from the start of the semifinals until I heard her answer the Jennifer Hawkin's question, "If you could go back in time and change a moment in your past, what would that be and why?"
She gave an answer that I consider to be the safest and laziest answer that one could give to such a question that would definitely show one's strength and humility. I was really disappointed.
That is why I considered, Ms. Venezuela's (Dayana Mendoza) answer to Louis Licari's question: "Do you believe men or women have it easier in life, and why?" her leap to the crown.
Her answer: "God made us to share and to have difference, but big difference between women and men, doesn't matter whether kind of life they live, is that men think, that they think that the faster way to got to a point is go straight. Women know that the faster way to go to a point is go to the curve and fix in every curves."
Her answer uplifted the women without the degrading men, and I think that makes a true Miss Universe, focusing the strengths of one's self without higlighting the weaknesses of others. =D Amazing!! i really like her.
Saturday, June 28, 2008
Home Sweet Home
We are finally moving to our new place. it's not as nice as the one were leaving but it'll definitely give us the peace that I have not had in the past month.
It's tiring, but I welcome it because I know that at the end of the frantic tasks of packing, unpacking and arranging, we will eventually call this humble place our new HOME!!
It's tiring, but I welcome it because I know that at the end of the frantic tasks of packing, unpacking and arranging, we will eventually call this humble place our new HOME!!
weird PDA scholar
I find LAARNI, one of the PDA scholars for 2008, really weird. At age 22, I think she's going through this MAJOR, and I mean MAJOR identity crisis. She's insecure and almost always feel that she doesn't belong. But sometimes she'd be so confident to run around like a child in the Academy, thinking it's cute (but, believe me, it's NOT --- SO NOT) or dance like Shakira in front of the other scholars.
I mean, it's nice to be around fun-loving people. They emit positive vibes around them. Ang problema kay Laarni, pag napagsasabihan siya, dinadaan niya kaagad sa iyak at iniisip na inaapi siya. Feeling pa niya, narrow-minded ang mga tao na pinagsasabihan siya.
Too bad, she was saved from being expelled this week after Chivas (one of my bets) was given the forced expulsion due to health reasons. SAYANG TALAGA!!! Nakakairita na kasi yung drama niya.
I just hope her stay will help her grow up and mature, or else, PDA should have psychological tests administered to all qualified competitors.
I mean, it's nice to be around fun-loving people. They emit positive vibes around them. Ang problema kay Laarni, pag napagsasabihan siya, dinadaan niya kaagad sa iyak at iniisip na inaapi siya. Feeling pa niya, narrow-minded ang mga tao na pinagsasabihan siya.
Too bad, she was saved from being expelled this week after Chivas (one of my bets) was given the forced expulsion due to health reasons. SAYANG TALAGA!!! Nakakairita na kasi yung drama niya.
I just hope her stay will help her grow up and mature, or else, PDA should have psychological tests administered to all qualified competitors.
Saturday, June 21, 2008
L.A. will be back
I got superexcited when I received a message from my best friend, Edgran, that L.A. will come visit us again on July 24. This time, she will be with Gener, her fiance (Congratulations!!) and will stay here for 20 days. I'm happy that I will get to spend quality time with my high school buddies once again. I just hope we will also get news about Apple and when she will be coming home as I miss my Badtz badly too. =(
Looking forward to a grand time with the gang next month!!
Looking forward to a grand time with the gang next month!!
Happy Father's Day
I hate to admit it but I don't spend a lot of time with the only parent that I have -- my Dad. But last Sunday, June 15, was his very special day, and my brother's (RJ), too since he is a father to my energetic nephew, Kmart (Kenyon Martin Barranda Divina), who is turning two on July 6. So I took this opportunity to make him to feel special on Father's Day.
We (RJ, Josine and I) were supposed to surprise my Dad but he texted me last Thursday, asking me if we will come and visit him on Sunday. Knowing my Dad, if you told him that you will not be there, he will make other plans, so surprising him after he asked that question is really not a good idea. I think he appreciated the thought that we will be there, at least he has something to look forward to on Sunday.
Bought a cake. Texted everyone to make sure they're all ready. Dada wanted us to go straight to church and attend mass, sadly, we were late as usual. Thanks to Ceasar and RJ. =)
We arrived at around 5.30pm at Dada's place. To our surprise, pupunta daw kami sa Baliwag restaurant. Hahaha!!! Saya, i've been wanting to eat liempo and pinakbet for days.
We had a blast. It's so nice to spend time and eat good food with the whole family. We had pinakbet, liempo, lechon manok, shrimps, bulalo and lots of rice. At siyempre, refillable iced tea!!!
Arjay, Josine and Ceasar almost had a heart attack.. hahaha.. Lahat daw kasi masarap. At chocolate ice cream pa for dessert. Josine had 3 servings. Good luck sa t-shirt na naging tight fitting shirt after 45 minutes. Takaw kasi. Sabi tuloy ni Dada kay Josine, "ano ba yan, anak? Magkasing laki na kayo ng tiyan ni JV?!" Of course, Josine didn't take it as a compliment, so this weekend, she's taking another dose of her Biguerlai slimming tea. Haha!! Crazy gal!
We all walked home to aid in our digestion cause we're sooo stuffed. Ceasar and I watched PBA with Dada, while the others were either playing, chatting and watching another show.
It was a blast!! I am sure we all had fun -- that we're looking forward to our next special get-together -- Kmart's 2nd birthday!!
We (RJ, Josine and I) were supposed to surprise my Dad but he texted me last Thursday, asking me if we will come and visit him on Sunday. Knowing my Dad, if you told him that you will not be there, he will make other plans, so surprising him after he asked that question is really not a good idea. I think he appreciated the thought that we will be there, at least he has something to look forward to on Sunday.
Bought a cake. Texted everyone to make sure they're all ready. Dada wanted us to go straight to church and attend mass, sadly, we were late as usual. Thanks to Ceasar and RJ. =)
We arrived at around 5.30pm at Dada's place. To our surprise, pupunta daw kami sa Baliwag restaurant. Hahaha!!! Saya, i've been wanting to eat liempo and pinakbet for days.
We had a blast. It's so nice to spend time and eat good food with the whole family. We had pinakbet, liempo, lechon manok, shrimps, bulalo and lots of rice. At siyempre, refillable iced tea!!!
Arjay, Josine and Ceasar almost had a heart attack.. hahaha.. Lahat daw kasi masarap. At chocolate ice cream pa for dessert. Josine had 3 servings. Good luck sa t-shirt na naging tight fitting shirt after 45 minutes. Takaw kasi. Sabi tuloy ni Dada kay Josine, "ano ba yan, anak? Magkasing laki na kayo ng tiyan ni JV?!" Of course, Josine didn't take it as a compliment, so this weekend, she's taking another dose of her Biguerlai slimming tea. Haha!! Crazy gal!
We all walked home to aid in our digestion cause we're sooo stuffed. Ceasar and I watched PBA with Dada, while the others were either playing, chatting and watching another show.
It was a blast!! I am sure we all had fun -- that we're looking forward to our next special get-together -- Kmart's 2nd birthday!!
Saturday, June 14, 2008
the day after
I feel better today. I feel that my anger towards this girl is easing its way out of my system. Of course, emotions do rush inside me when I see her, but it was a conscious decision on my part to not let her and her presence affect me or ruin my days. It takes a lot of effort and self-control to do this but if I was able to do this before, I'm sure I can do this again. Besides, she doesn't deserve my time and energy. I could allot them to more meaningful and worthy people and endeavors.
I'm looking forward to our new home. Actually, we all are. Living with her took a toll on all of us. We are fortunate that we don't have to live with her and her ways forever. She's almost like a burden you can't get off your back. I only enjoy a few pleasures in life -- and one of them is coming home to a peaceful place. I work hard and so I deserve to have a home that serves as my refuge from the demands of this world. I won't let anyone deprive me of that pleasure.
I know that someday I will find it in my heart to delete my entries about her. I will never forget but I know I can forgive -- someday. Or I'll keep them as a reminder of how "juvenile" (pahiram muna ng word ulit, Vayie! =D) the fight was and how embarrassing it was to be a part of it. Hopefully, we'll just laugh our hearts out while reading it, but I doubt it since I know how hurtful my words are. Still, I know someday, things will be better. We can no longer be friends, but hey, it's a small world, after all, there is still a big chance that we will bump into each other. I hope when that time comes, we can then share a smile.
So for now, dedma talaga!! Yoko ng away. Negative vibes should not be entertained. If she's still mad, I just hope she does it in silence.
For the next two weeks, we'll all be busy looking for a new place that's as good as where we live now but cheaper.
In 16 days, we will have peace, FINALLY!!
I'm looking forward to our new home. Actually, we all are. Living with her took a toll on all of us. We are fortunate that we don't have to live with her and her ways forever. She's almost like a burden you can't get off your back. I only enjoy a few pleasures in life -- and one of them is coming home to a peaceful place. I work hard and so I deserve to have a home that serves as my refuge from the demands of this world. I won't let anyone deprive me of that pleasure.
I know that someday I will find it in my heart to delete my entries about her. I will never forget but I know I can forgive -- someday. Or I'll keep them as a reminder of how "juvenile" (pahiram muna ng word ulit, Vayie! =D) the fight was and how embarrassing it was to be a part of it. Hopefully, we'll just laugh our hearts out while reading it, but I doubt it since I know how hurtful my words are. Still, I know someday, things will be better. We can no longer be friends, but hey, it's a small world, after all, there is still a big chance that we will bump into each other. I hope when that time comes, we can then share a smile.
So for now, dedma talaga!! Yoko ng away. Negative vibes should not be entertained. If she's still mad, I just hope she does it in silence.
For the next two weeks, we'll all be busy looking for a new place that's as good as where we live now but cheaper.
In 16 days, we will have peace, FINALLY!!
Friday, June 13, 2008
For a pair of sandals...
For a pair of sandals, I now fear for my safety. I was accused by someone for cutting the straps of her sandals. I was shocked by this girl's nerve to even think that I would stoop that low just to get even with her.
I admit, her mere presence is repulsing for me. She is useless at home, she simply just takes up space. She uses her boyfriend who is so nice and hardworking while she enjoys sexy time with another. She's stupid enough to make the most shallow excuses just to cover her trysts with another guy. Unfortunately, her boyfriend believed her every word. He has been open to us about his own suspicions but he himself is in denial that his goody goody girlfriend can do that to him. Reality check, dude, she's doing it to you as of the moment.
She found her sandals all cut up, and immediately thought of me doing it. She even had her boyfriend confront mine about it. My boyfriend didn't deny that I had ill-feeling towards her. I may be easily annoyed by people's flaws but that doesn't mean I'm that stupid to do something that will point directly at me. Too bad, we have scissors, they don't but that doesn't mean I did it. Logic, my dear, but I bet you don't have common sense. It is unfortunate that your lover can't buy you that.
I'm scared of this girl. The lowest of the low. If you look at her, she looks mahinhin, but I warn you she's one gold digger, user and a sanggano. She showed more concern over material things than relationships. She's unbelievable!!!
At nagdadabog pa siya kagabi. I had enough of it. Rude talaga!! When she heard me call her bastos, she then shouted, "SINIRA MO SANDALS KO!!" Fuck you!! Mahiya ka sa balat mo!! Show proof that I did it, but you won't be able to do so because I didn't! Baka pati mga espiritu sa bahay galit na sa yo at sa katamaran mo!! So don't take it out on me. And if you want another excuse para makauwi ka ng gabi, well, please not at my expense, slut!! Matagal na akong asar sa yo but you're lucky that you have a good boyfriend, I respect him and he's like a brother to me kaya hindi kita inaano. Besides, you're so stupid to not realise that. Masyadong mababa tingin mo sa boyfriend mo, tingin mo mas nagugustuhan ka ng tao, well sorry to disappoint you, my dear, mas matotolerate ko pa ang pagiging alcoholic ng bf mo kesa ang pagiging social climber mo. Hindi ka naman makakabili ng mga gamit mo kung wala kang ibang lalaki.
Now I fear for my safety. On my way to work today, I found this motorcycle parked at the bank across the street where I usually wait for a bus. I am certain, the guy on it was staring at me. When the guy saw that I wasn't alone, (I was with Ceasar), he immediately left while still staring at us. Call me paranoid, but I'd rather be one than dead.
If something bad happens to me, my boyfriend definitely knows who's responsible for it. kaya lang ang cheap ng fight na to, 'no, over sandals na hindi naman mahal at maganda. El cheapo naman. hay!! magkakaroon lang ako ng kaaway yung bobo pa, yung hindi marunong magmeasure ng value ng mga bagay-bagay. Aaaargh!!
I warn you guys, don't fight with stupid girls. It's not worth it. I'll ignore her and her ka-cheap-an from now on again. I just hope she'll have enough brain cells to realise na ang pangit ng away na to!!
For a pair of sandals, my safety and peace of mind is compromised. I hate it. I'm scared. I want this to stop.
I admit, her mere presence is repulsing for me. She is useless at home, she simply just takes up space. She uses her boyfriend who is so nice and hardworking while she enjoys sexy time with another. She's stupid enough to make the most shallow excuses just to cover her trysts with another guy. Unfortunately, her boyfriend believed her every word. He has been open to us about his own suspicions but he himself is in denial that his goody goody girlfriend can do that to him. Reality check, dude, she's doing it to you as of the moment.
She found her sandals all cut up, and immediately thought of me doing it. She even had her boyfriend confront mine about it. My boyfriend didn't deny that I had ill-feeling towards her. I may be easily annoyed by people's flaws but that doesn't mean I'm that stupid to do something that will point directly at me. Too bad, we have scissors, they don't but that doesn't mean I did it. Logic, my dear, but I bet you don't have common sense. It is unfortunate that your lover can't buy you that.
I'm scared of this girl. The lowest of the low. If you look at her, she looks mahinhin, but I warn you she's one gold digger, user and a sanggano. She showed more concern over material things than relationships. She's unbelievable!!!
At nagdadabog pa siya kagabi. I had enough of it. Rude talaga!! When she heard me call her bastos, she then shouted, "SINIRA MO SANDALS KO!!" Fuck you!! Mahiya ka sa balat mo!! Show proof that I did it, but you won't be able to do so because I didn't! Baka pati mga espiritu sa bahay galit na sa yo at sa katamaran mo!! So don't take it out on me. And if you want another excuse para makauwi ka ng gabi, well, please not at my expense, slut!! Matagal na akong asar sa yo but you're lucky that you have a good boyfriend, I respect him and he's like a brother to me kaya hindi kita inaano. Besides, you're so stupid to not realise that. Masyadong mababa tingin mo sa boyfriend mo, tingin mo mas nagugustuhan ka ng tao, well sorry to disappoint you, my dear, mas matotolerate ko pa ang pagiging alcoholic ng bf mo kesa ang pagiging social climber mo. Hindi ka naman makakabili ng mga gamit mo kung wala kang ibang lalaki.
Now I fear for my safety. On my way to work today, I found this motorcycle parked at the bank across the street where I usually wait for a bus. I am certain, the guy on it was staring at me. When the guy saw that I wasn't alone, (I was with Ceasar), he immediately left while still staring at us. Call me paranoid, but I'd rather be one than dead.
If something bad happens to me, my boyfriend definitely knows who's responsible for it. kaya lang ang cheap ng fight na to, 'no, over sandals na hindi naman mahal at maganda. El cheapo naman. hay!! magkakaroon lang ako ng kaaway yung bobo pa, yung hindi marunong magmeasure ng value ng mga bagay-bagay. Aaaargh!!
I warn you guys, don't fight with stupid girls. It's not worth it. I'll ignore her and her ka-cheap-an from now on again. I just hope she'll have enough brain cells to realise na ang pangit ng away na to!!
For a pair of sandals, my safety and peace of mind is compromised. I hate it. I'm scared. I want this to stop.
Monday, June 9, 2008
compo
i'm trapped in these walls called love
never cry over things never meant for me
put myself in the losing end
coz you're just worth it, worth the risk
in the absence of certainty
i am sure
i don't want to say goodbye,
i can't and i won't
i will never ask questions
for answers i am not ready to hear,
not ready to handle
who i am and what i have
i lost myself
love means never having to say you're sorry
but i'm sorry you're not the one for me
i'm sorry that things don't go our way
still, i can't let go, won't let go
kompo: CLOSET
bilanggo sa katotohanan,
kahit saang anggulo tignan
hindi maibahagi, hindi maisiwalat
(pag-ibig ko sa yong tapat/tapang ko ay hindi sapat)
kaligayahan ko'y aking kasiraan
unti-unting nalulunod, tila di makahinga
nakakulong sa sarili kong mundo
lumuluhang mag-isa
di alam kung may makakaunawa
dalangin ko'y inog ng mundo'y mag-iba
bigyan ako ng pag-asa
Makamtan ang kaligayahan
ninanais, inaasam
mahagkan ang yong labi
maangkin ang iyong puso
mahawakan ang iyong kamay
makita ka, makasama ka
ngunit kay lupit ng mundo
kahit saglit na mahalaga
tila ako'y mabibigo
na makuha
Poetic justice to a bleeding soul.. hehehe..
visions I want to remain
visions I want to fade away as they bring so much pain
souvenirs and tokens of love that could never be
some tangible, some not
yet they bring lasting memories that never want to leave
words may be enough
but your love is all I want
I've held your hand, kissed your lips
Felt your breath on my skin
But I know, I'll never have your heart.
please let me go
or let me in
either way, i'll seek refuge in myself
you're free
soon, you'll no longer be
another hurt, another wish to be numb
couldn't hate you
coz you're oblivious
to this feeling burning in me
i want to see what's ahead of me
desperate in saving my tears
for something I can't have
-- I almost have
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
To Papush
Bubba, sorry for putting you in such a compromising situation. Through the years that we've been together, you've taught how to fight back, stand up for what I believe in at the right time. I treated your brods like they are my real brothers - welcomed them without second thoughts because they are your brothers.
But I've had enough. I have said my piece last night. I know I am right. It was confirmed when he was trying to justify her girlfriend's behavior.
However, it doesn't matter anymore whether I'm right or not. I'm tired of caring for their/her issues. She will be a ghost in the house. I will no longer consider her in any of my decisions.
I want us to be happy and if ignoring her is one way then I'm ready to do it. Anyway, she's useless to me.
Again, I'm sorry and I love you.
But I've had enough. I have said my piece last night. I know I am right. It was confirmed when he was trying to justify her girlfriend's behavior.
However, it doesn't matter anymore whether I'm right or not. I'm tired of caring for their/her issues. She will be a ghost in the house. I will no longer consider her in any of my decisions.
I want us to be happy and if ignoring her is one way then I'm ready to do it. Anyway, she's useless to me.
Again, I'm sorry and I love you.
That's it!! I've had it.
You will now be non-existent in my life. I will no longer let myself be bothered by your uselessness and inconsideration towards others. I want my peace of mind back.
This is my home. With the help of the people that I love, I made it a home, feel like a home, look like a home. So, THIS IS MY HOME. And I won't let someone who does not even share with the expenses ruin it or make it feel less of a home.
YOU live WITH ME!! It's your turn to make the necessary adjustments. I've done my part for the past months. You're not my master, I'm not your servant. I don't need to spend my time adjusting to YOUR needs or issues. If you can't live with me, then LEAVE -- you and your boyfriend with NO BALLS to stand up for what is right and what is proper.
From now on, you will no longer feel my care and warmth as if you're a part of my family. I've had enough of you and your primadonna ways.
Stay out of my way and we'll both be fine.
This is my home. With the help of the people that I love, I made it a home, feel like a home, look like a home. So, THIS IS MY HOME. And I won't let someone who does not even share with the expenses ruin it or make it feel less of a home.
YOU live WITH ME!! It's your turn to make the necessary adjustments. I've done my part for the past months. You're not my master, I'm not your servant. I don't need to spend my time adjusting to YOUR needs or issues. If you can't live with me, then LEAVE -- you and your boyfriend with NO BALLS to stand up for what is right and what is proper.
From now on, you will no longer feel my care and warmth as if you're a part of my family. I've had enough of you and your primadonna ways.
Stay out of my way and we'll both be fine.
Monday, May 26, 2008
you don't deserve my energy, so i'm ending it here
I'm tired of the feeling of being choked by your mere presence.
I'm tired of the repugnance I have at the thought of you getting near my stuff.
you are lazy... you are inconsiderate... you are a princess... you are the queen...
i'm letting this out!! I don't want to fight. I don't like you bringing out the worse in me.
i'm usually patient and understanding and compassionate towards people like you, but you certainly had the last straw.
sana matuto ka nang makisama. Okay lang naman na i-project mo sa mga katrabaho mo na sosyal ka, na masarap ang buhay mo (hmm, kahit papano, totoo kasi wala ka ngang ginagawa) kahit alam naman natin na mahirap ka at wala kang pera. kung hindi lang dahil sa boyfriend mo **and i think may isa ka pa** wala kang tirahan at pambili ng pagkain mo. At siyempre, wala kang pambili sa mga luho mo.
You are definitely an embarrassment to the Filipino women of today and what they represent.
Be independent. Pagsilbihan mo naman ang boyfriend mo!! Siya ang nagpapakahirap sa inyo. Mahiya ka naman, pero tingin ko wala ka na non kasi tingin mo talaga reyna ka. Make him happy, other than just being pretty. Although I think you enjoy being a trophy!! Poor you coz you're not even close to being pretty most especially when you eat --- close your mouth while chewing the morsels of food you didn't work hard for to get them on your plate, girl!!
If this is the only way that I can get rid of my hatred, I will do this. I know I'll get tired soon enough, but for now, I'll say what's on my mind in my space. And please, stop flirting with other guys for certain favors, THAT'S PROSTITUTION, MY DEAR. Subtle lang yung sa yo kasi "nagtatrabaho" ka sa umaga but still looks like it. Of course you don't realise it kasi, sabi nga ni Vayie, HIPAN MO YUNG KAMAY KO NA NAKASARA, BUBUKA!! Most likely, you didn't get it.
...I FINALLY FEEL BETTER NOW (without really hurting anybody.)
I'm tired of the repugnance I have at the thought of you getting near my stuff.
you are lazy... you are inconsiderate... you are a princess... you are the queen...
i'm letting this out!! I don't want to fight. I don't like you bringing out the worse in me.
i'm usually patient and understanding and compassionate towards people like you, but you certainly had the last straw.
sana matuto ka nang makisama. Okay lang naman na i-project mo sa mga katrabaho mo na sosyal ka, na masarap ang buhay mo (hmm, kahit papano, totoo kasi wala ka ngang ginagawa) kahit alam naman natin na mahirap ka at wala kang pera. kung hindi lang dahil sa boyfriend mo **and i think may isa ka pa** wala kang tirahan at pambili ng pagkain mo. At siyempre, wala kang pambili sa mga luho mo.
You are definitely an embarrassment to the Filipino women of today and what they represent.
Be independent. Pagsilbihan mo naman ang boyfriend mo!! Siya ang nagpapakahirap sa inyo. Mahiya ka naman, pero tingin ko wala ka na non kasi tingin mo talaga reyna ka. Make him happy, other than just being pretty. Although I think you enjoy being a trophy!! Poor you coz you're not even close to being pretty most especially when you eat --- close your mouth while chewing the morsels of food you didn't work hard for to get them on your plate, girl!!
If this is the only way that I can get rid of my hatred, I will do this. I know I'll get tired soon enough, but for now, I'll say what's on my mind in my space. And please, stop flirting with other guys for certain favors, THAT'S PROSTITUTION, MY DEAR. Subtle lang yung sa yo kasi "nagtatrabaho" ka sa umaga but still looks like it. Of course you don't realise it kasi, sabi nga ni Vayie, HIPAN MO YUNG KAMAY KO NA NAKASARA, BUBUKA!! Most likely, you didn't get it.
...I FINALLY FEEL BETTER NOW (without really hurting anybody.)
daddy tony
Astig ang lineup ng songs ni Daddy Tony sa player niya.
From Enrique Iglesias, to Michelle Branch, Rihanna the Aerosmith... COOL!! Go Daddy!
Sarap tuloy magtrabaho.
From Enrique Iglesias, to Michelle Branch, Rihanna the Aerosmith... COOL!! Go Daddy!
Sarap tuloy magtrabaho.
honest mistake
Just found out yesterday that my burner was actually both a CD and DVD burner. Yay!! Instantly, I made a DVD for my dada with all his favorite songs. Thanks to Iwo and his patience. I learned a new thing again!!
I'm just happy to know that I wasn't scammed after all. =D
I'm just happy to know that I wasn't scammed after all. =D
Monday, May 12, 2008
Blessed: the Perfect song!
Always walking in the shadows.
Then I look, at what you've given me;
I feel like dancing on my tip-toes.
I must say everyday I pray
When realize you're by my side;
I know I'm truly...
Blessed for everything you've given me;
Blessed for all the tenderness you show;
Do my best with every breath that's in me;
Blessed to make sure you never go.
There are times, that I test your
faith, 'til you think you might surrender.
Baby I'm, I'm not ashamed to say, that my
hopes will grow in splendor
You walked by in the nick of time
looking like an answered prayer
You know I'm truly...
Blessed for everything you've given me;
Blessed for all the tenderness you show;
Do my best with every breath that's in me;
Blessed to make sure you never go.
Blessed with love and understanding;
Blessed when I hear you call my name;
Do my best with faith that's never-ending;
Blessed to make sure you feel the same.
Deep inside you fill me with your tender touch...
You know I'm truly
Blessed for everything you've given me;
Blessed for all the tenderness you show;
Do my best with every breath that's in me;
Blessed to make sure you never go.
how am i today?
I'm happy that I'm loved and special without condition and time - just loved for who I am and the happiness my presence brings.
With my family
With my best friends
With Pachiez, Ceasar
With my Uno Animo team/friends
With Sundaycame
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