Pier One, QC

Ceasar surprised me yesterday. He picked me up from work. Had an early dinner at McDonald's Philcoa before we went to Pier One in Timog to meet with an executive of a recording company.

I was a nervous wreck on the way to Pier One. Ano ba? Seryoso na kaya 'to? This can either make us or break us --- more like our dream to be heard. Tapos late pa ang mga batang lalaki. Si Manager, nakatira sa Parañaque, umalis ng pagkalate na talaga. Si Mau, stuck sa may Sta. Lucia, after ihatid ang girlfriend niyang si Glenys. Gerard, still at work and Daddy Riki was at the airport with his parents and brother.

The boss came and boy, was I nervous. It's like you have to be the best by just sitting there. We were almost breathless watching him listen to our songs. Finally, he said he liked them!!! Yay!

Good news: He wants us to be part of a compilation album with Imago. Wow!! Idol ko yung bandang yun eh. Plus, he will produce our songs!!! God is so good.

The band celebrated this great night with booze, refillable iced tea, cheese and beef nachos (yummy!!), sisig sampler, laughter, and funny pics with Mau.

I miss this kind of moments with my bandmates. I'm so happy that we were all there to see our dreams slowly unfolding.

Cheers to Sundaycame!!!!

I have a song for him...

Come A Little Closer
Brandy

I know that it's late
And maybe I shouldn't be so into you
It's just that tonight
I am so taken, I've fallen for you
When I look in your eyes I can see
A million possibilities
And I know you'll be leaving me soon
But tonight

Come a little bit closer
Let me hold you baby
I will be good for you
And we can try
To forget tomorrow
And make it last forever tonight

So if you must go
Know that I'll be missing you, wishing you closer
So let's make the most of these
Moments together, we'll never forget
And it's breaking my heart 'cause I know
That tomorrow you'll be miles away
And I catch myself wanting so much more
Tonight

Come a little bit closer
Let me hold you baby
I will be good for you
And we can try
To forget tomorrow
And make it last forever tonight

[BRIDGE]
So if you’re leaving me now
Baby I don't know how
I will ever get over you
Because you opened my eyes
To this love that's inside
Oh baby, don't ever, ever leave me

[CHORUS out]

I actually have a song for my friend. Shucks. This is really for him. Kung kelan ko lang siya kasama, dun lang yun nagma-matter. Pag nagkahiwalay na kami, normal na naman ako. Basta ganon.

One-sided Secret Love

SECRET LOVERS
By: Atlantic Starr

Here we are, the two of us together
Takin’ this crazy chance to be all alone
We both know that we should not be together
‘Cause if we’re found out, it could mess up
Both our happy homes

I hate to think about us all meeting up together
‘Cause as soon as I look at you it will show on my face, yeah
Then they’ll know that we’ve been loving each other
We can’t let ‘em know, no, no, no
We can’t leave a trace

Secret lovers, yeah, that’s what we are
We should not be together
But we can’t let go, no, no
‘Cause we love each other so

Ooh…ooh…

Sittin’ at home, I do nothin’ all day
But I think about you and hope that you’re okay
Hopin’ you’ll call before anyone gets home
I wait anxiously alone by the phone

How could something so wrong be so right
I wish we didn’t have to keep our love out of sight, yeah
Living two lives just ain’t easy at all
But we gotta hang on in there or fall

Secret lovers, yeah, that’s what we are
We should not be together
But we can’t let go, no, no
‘Cause we love each other so

Secret lovers, yeah, that’s what we are
Tryin’ so hard to hide the way we feel
‘Cause we both belong to someone else
But we can’t let go
‘Cause what we feel is, oh, so real
So real, so real

You and me, are we friends
Is this cool or do we care
Can they tell what’s in our minds
Maybe they’ve had secret loves all of the time

In the middle of making love we notice the time
We both get nervous ‘cause it’s way after nine
Even though we hate it, we know it’s time that we go
We gotta be careful so that no one will know

Secret lovers, yeah, that’s what we are
Trying so hard to hide the way we feel
‘Cause we both belong to someone else
But we can’t let go
‘Cause what we feel is, oh, so real
So real, so real, so real, so real

turmoil

I think the most difficult thing that could happen when you think you are falling out of love with someone you thought you'd spend the rest of your life with is when there is no reason for you to fall out of love with that person.

I am going through this. I think I am falling for someone else as a result of what is happening between me and my boyfriend. Or is it the other way around?

I am with my greatest love, who came at the most unexpected time of my life. With him, I became better and stronger. I now know myself better. Being with him means being certain of what life has in store for me.. for my future family. He is responsible, intelligent, smart, funny and compassionate. He says that his dreams started to unfold when he found me. I could say I feel the same. We almost have the same dreams but different paths to take. Still, I don't mind. He is the best thing that ever happened to my life.

Things started becoming tough for us when he gets himself involved with so many things. Business. School. Teaching. The Band. He is everywhere! 24 hours is never enough to get everything done. Eventhough we are together, it seems like we are miles apart. It's like our time to be together is limited because he has more important things to do. I know it's unfair. I mean, it's not all FUN right? But I AM part of his life, not a furniture or appliance that you use when he feels like it or it is convenient for him. i told him about my concerns over and over again. That he has to take things slow. He should get himself involved that he can comfortably managed. But my concerns fell on deaf ears. I know where he is coming from, he is basically making for the mistakes he did back when his mom was still able to support him. But time won't make it easier for you. I know that. But he never listened.

This problem has always bothered us many times before -- poker, PS2, fraternity, brods, drinking, etc. We almost parted ways because of these, because he often got lost in the way of things. Yet, we managed to rise above them. But now it's different... There's something wrong with me.

I think I'm falling for someone else. A friend. A friend who will never see me as more than a friend. Still, I'm here wondering what could be. What if I'm free? What if I can make that decision for myself without considering other people's feelings? What if I just tell him the truth? Plain what ifs? But I can't bring myself to do it.. It's not me.

Fate surely has an awful sense of humor. Why let my friend and my paths crossed again, now when I am vulnerable to temptation, to a new kind of love, to hate, to revenge? I know nothing can come out this, but I'm still here making that connection, testing the waters, testing my will, but I feel I am already losing, yet willingly, I allow myself to be in it.

He makes me laugh, makes me feel special without the intention of messing with my brain. We kid around about being romantic, but i know it's nothing for him. I'm the one who's sick enough to play them over and over again in my mind and indulge in the happiness it brings. THIS IS ME BEING STUPID.

This situation is physically and emotionally draining for me. I talked to my friend and with her words, I came to this decision, I have to come clean, tell my great love the truth and just wait for his decision.

I told him everything. I told him that I am in the brink of committing infidelity because I like how I am being treated, how I feel attracted (although things between me and my friend are not even close to sexual) and attractive, how I wanted to be free and explore the possiblities. I get the sudden feeling that I don't want to settle down yet. I'm not sure if I want to spend the rest of my life with him. I'm not even sure if I can be with him anymore. I feel like I want to be alone. Date again perhaps, just feel that i am free to make my OWN choices, choices for MYSELF and not for anybody else.

After our talk, we decided to start all over again. Still together, but more freedom to do what we have and want to do. It's like we're free to do what we want to do but our being together will constantly remind us of our plans.. In the end, we don't know if we will end up together. This is our last shot. And I'm just making sure that I make the most out of the situation so that I won't feel that I was actually compelled to stay because this is my comfort zone. I want to make the choices that I want for myself and my future.

turmoil song

What About Me?Kenny Rogers with Kim Carnes & James Ingram
I see you here with me
I've waited all my life for someone like you
Someone to give my heart and soul to

I look into your eyes
Your love for me was such a welcome surprise
I think at last I've found forever

But what about me?
(I'll always love you)
What about me?
(I'll always need you)
You were my love before
But I need so much more of you

Time after time I feel I'm losing my mind
Or maybe this is what lovers must go through
It never entered my mind
We could be wasting our time
What am I gonna do?
But what about me?

No reason to pretend
True love affairs don't have to come to an end
The moment we don't have all the answers

I nearly go insane
Each and every time I hear you whisper my name
I feel the same when I'm around you

But what about me?
(I'll always love you)
What about me?
(I'll always need you)
This is so hard for me
I wanted so much to be with you

Time after time I feel I'm losing my mind
Or maybe this is what lovers must go through
It never entered my mind
We could be wasting our time
What am I gonna do?

But what about me?

UNO ANIMO TEAM DINNER PARTY

The Uno Animo team (without Tetay, RJ, Revo and Chloe.. :() went to Pizza Hut Makati Cinema Square branch for our much-awaited early dinner. We had a blast. Everybody was just so darn happy. Nothing can be as perfect as this... great food (supreme pizza overload, chicken wings, steak fries and oh yes REFILLABLE Iced tea til we drop -- right Alex!?), good friends and an old boss (literally and figuratively -- peace out Gerry! Hahaha..), what more could you ask for.

Seriously, I had so much fun because we are like one family causing chaos in the li'l old Pizza Hut. I get to finally our new teammates from the night shift, it was really cool. We just found ourselves having a blast as if we're not strangers to one another.

May chika na may special nightout ang Batch 1. FINALLY!!?? A well-deserved treat for us since simula ng magtrabaho kami eh hindi na kami nakapagteam building sa dilang team building ng call centers. Kaya sobrang excited na ko, actually kaming lahat sa Batch 1.

Another favorite song

Here comes the rain again
Falling on my head like a memory
Falling on my head like a new emotion
I want to walk in the open wind
I want to talk like lovers do
I want to dive into your ocean
Is it raining with you

So baby talk to me
Like lovers do
Walk with me
Like lovers do
Talk to me
Like lovers do

Here comes the rain again
Raining in my head like a tragedy
Tearing me apart like a new emotion
Oooooh
I want to breathe in the open wind
I want to kiss like lovers do
I want to dive into your ocean
Is it raining with you

So baby talk to me
Like lovers do

Here comes the rain again
Falling on my head like a memory
Falling on my head like a new emotion
(Here it comes again, here it comes again)
I want to walk in the open wind
I want to talk like lovers do
I want dive into your ocean
Is it raining with you

sheesh...

Darn. This is not a good start for me. I got a a frigging infraction for wearing a sleeveless shirt! No warning whatsoever. On the good side though, I thought I was getting an infraction for using Friendster. That would be pretty embarassing... Teehee! Was caught red-handed. =P

Anyway, this would mean that I might not even have the guts to apply for a higher position because of this, although I really don't see myself yet going for that, still, you know it's now part of my record that I was once an offender. =(

The good thing is "manong" was not the attention-getter type. He was very calm and quiet when he gave me my first ever infraction. He wasn't like some officers who would talk loud and make the whole thing be known in the whole production floor. So there... INFRACTION, SCHMRACTION... HA! :)

The Rich Man Who Can Never Afford Common Sense

Last night was a tough night for me. Ceasar was having some problems with someone that his landlady owed some money to. I admit it was his fault that his rent piled up.

He was religiously saving money so that he can move to a new place in June. He has been working so hard the whole summer just so he could make the change before classes start.

I can't believe that this person is calling him names for not being able to pay him. Of course, Ceasar was to blame but that doesn't mean he has every right to call him manloloko. I was just listening for a while because I want to understand the situation. I really don't usually interfere with Ceasar's concerns because mainly, he doesn't allow me to unless he feels he needs my advice. But the man went overboard by repeating the same words over and over again and I just couldn't handle it. I spoke up. I usually don't talk back to elders but this man really asked for it. The problem with him is that Ceasar was being honest with him that he doesn't have the money last night to pay them his dues. But he finds it unacceptable. He said that Ceasar should be honest. Now what the hell does he think Ceasar was doing then? Lying to his teeth?!!

I mean, the man may be rich but he certainly lacks common sense. Arrgh!!! Shoot. I'm still shaking with anger just thinking about what happened last night. I'm just so angry last night that I told the man to shut the fu*k up. I don't care how he sees me as a person but I am certain that the way I see him that night is not good and will never change unless he makes me. (As if I care!) Everytime he opened his mouth, he continues to contradicts himself. I'm not really like this, but I'm pretty sensitive when it comes to Ceasar because I know what he was going through these days. That man doesn't know half of what's going on, so I guess he doesn't really UNDERSTAND (because he kept on saying that.. naiintindihan ko naman kayo eh, kaya nga tumagal yung bayarin na to. The point is sino bang may gusto na may utang siya lalo na sa taong maanghang magsalita? The house is like hell, the owner and that man don't care about what is happening with the tenants. Fu*k them!!! I swear this will not happen again, to me or to Ceasar or to anyone that I care about. I will definitely show them that we will not trade our dignity and integrity for P5000. Hey I know it's a lot of money these days but I don't want to make my world smaller and my dignity worthless just for that. UUuugh, some people just lack common sense.

In the end, I lend Ceasar P2000 so that we can get him off our backs, even for a while. Haay, sa katapusan naman ulit.

**next time, always set your priorities straight.

Home...

Home Daughtry lyricsArtist: Daughtry

I'm staring out into the night
And trying to hide the pain
I'm going to the place where love
can feel but they dont live the cost of fame
In pain it feels a different kind of pain
I'm going home to the place where I belong
where your love has always been enough for me
I'm running from you know I think you got me all wrong
I don't regret this life I chose for me
But these places and these faces are getting old
So I'm going home
The miles are getting longer it seems
The closer I get to you.... babe
And I've always been the best man and friend for you
To love and make true and I dont know why
You always seem to give me another try
I'm going home
To the place where I belong
Where your love has always been good enough for me
I'm running from you know I think you got me all wrong
I don't regret this life I chose for me
But these places and these faces are getting old
Be careful what you wish for
cause you just might get it all
you just might get it all and then some you dont want
be careful what you wish for cause you just might get it all
You just might get it all
I'm going home to the place where I belong
Where your love has always been enough for me
And I'm running from.. you know I think you got me all wrong
I don't regret this life I chose for me'
But these places and these faces are getting old
But these places and these faces are getting old
I'm going home
I'm going home

I liked this Mojofly hit the first time I heard it. It talks about accepting things as they are, moving on and being strong. It teaches us to look ahead than indulge in misery and blame.

Kumusta na
Nandyan ka pa ba
Wala na yatang ibang magagawa
Kundi tumawa

Nandyan pa ba
Mga ala-ala
Ang tanging bagay na naiwan
Sa 'ting dalawa

Wag nang paikutin ang isa't isa
Lahat ng bagay ay malinaw na
Di na rin kailangan pagpilitan pa
Di mo na kinakailangan pang magsalita

Nakita ko ng lahat ito
Pinahihiwatig ng mata mo
Salamat na lamang sayo
Ohhhhhhh

Nakita ko ng lahat ito
Pinahihiwatig ng mata mo
Salamat na lamang sayo
Ohhhhhhh

Kumusta na
Nandyan ka pa ba
Wala na yatang ibang magagawa
Kundi tumawa

Nandyan pa ba
Mga ala-ala
Ang tanging bagay na naiwan
Sa 'ting dalawa

Wag nang paikutin ang isa't isa
Lahat ng bagay ay malinaw na
Di na rin kailangang pagpilitan pa
Di mo na kinakailangan pang magsalita

Nakita ko ng lahat ito
Pinahihiwatig ng mata mo
Salamat na lamang sayo
Ohhhhhhh

Nakita ko ng lahat ito
Pinahihiwatig ng mata mo
Salamat na lamang sa'yo
Ohhhhhhh

Mata mo, mata mo, mata mo, mata mo...........

Bette Davis' Eyes

I heard this song while on my way to visit my English professor. The jeepney had good speakers so this was first time to actually hear all the details of the song. I like the beat, the effects, and the voice (husky but sultry).

Bette Davis' Eyes

She's precocious
and she knows just
what it takes to make a pro blush
She's got Greta Garbo's stand-off sighs
She's got Bette Davis eyes

She'll let you take her home
It whets her appetite
She'll lay you on her throne
She's got Bette Davis eyes

She'll take a tumble on you
Roll you like you were dice
Until you come up blue
She's got Bette Davis eyes

She'll expose you
When she snows you
Off your feet with the crumbs she throws you
She's ferocious
and she knows just what it takes
to make a pro blush
All the boys think she's a spy
She's got Bette Davis eyes

And she'll tease you
She'll unease you
all the better just to please you
She's precocious
and she knows just
what it takes to make a pro blush
All the boys think she's a spy
She's got Bette Davis eyes

She will tease you
She'll unease you
Just to please you
She's got Bette Davis eyes

She'll expose you
When she snows you
She knows you
She's got Bette Davis eyes

SUNDO...

I.
Kay tagal kong sinusuyod ang buong mundo
Para hanapin, para hanapin ka
Nilibot ang distrito ng iyong lumbay
Pupulutin, pupulutin ka

Refrain:
Sinusundo kita,
Sinusundo

Chorus:
Asahan mong mula ngayon pag-ibig ko’y sayo
Asahan mong mula ngayon pag-ibig ko’y sayo

Sa akin mo isabit ang iyong lumbay
Di kukulangin ang ibibigay
Isuko ang kaba tuluyan kang bumitaw
Ika’y manalig
Manalig ka..

Refrain:
Sinusundo kita
Sinusundo

Chorus:
Asahan mong mula ngayon pag-ibig ko’y sayo
Asahan mong mula ngayon pag-ibig ko’y sayo

Handa na sa liwanag mo
Sinuyod ang buong mundo
Maghihintay sayo’ng sundo

Tuliro

Labis ako'y nahuhumaling sa isip
Bawat sandaling ika'y makapiling
Giliw hayaang lumapit
Wag mo sanang ipagkait
Ang malas sa langit

**anong nadarama
Tuwing makikita kang
Dumarating, tuliro
Di malaman ang gagawin
At walang sino mang makapipigil sa akin
At wla ng ibang makapagbabago ng aking isip sau..haaay!!

Wari di ko na malimut
Mga galaw at kilos mo
Sa aking pagtulog
At sa panaginip ika'y mamalagi
Di na muling malulumbay
Sa aking pagising

Repeat**
Anong nadarama

Anong nadarama
Ngayon sa isip ko'y hindi ka maalis
Tuliro
Di malaman ang gagawin
At walang sinumang makapipigil sa akin
At wala ng ibang makapagbabago ng aking isip sau...

Anong nadarama
Ngayon at nandirito ka sa aking tabi
Tuliro
Di malaman ang gagawin
At walang sinumang makapipigil sa akin

I just find this song really cute.. Sooo high school! Hahaha.. Back when love seems so pure and innocent.