Saturday, June 14, 2008

the day after

I feel better today. I feel that my anger towards this girl is easing its way out of my system. Of course, emotions do rush inside me when I see her, but it was a conscious decision on my part to not let her and her presence affect me or ruin my days. It takes a lot of effort and self-control to do this but if I was able to do this before, I'm sure I can do this again. Besides, she doesn't deserve my time and energy. I could allot them to more meaningful and worthy people and endeavors.

I'm looking forward to our new home. Actually, we all are. Living with her took a toll on all of us. We are fortunate that we don't have to live with her and her ways forever. She's almost like a burden you can't get off your back. I only enjoy a few pleasures in life -- and one of them is coming home to a peaceful place. I work hard and so I deserve to have a home that serves as my refuge from the demands of this world. I won't let anyone deprive me of that pleasure.

I know that someday I will find it in my heart to delete my entries about her. I will never forget but I know I can forgive -- someday. Or I'll keep them as a reminder of how "juvenile" (pahiram muna ng word ulit, Vayie! =D) the fight was and how embarrassing it was to be a part of it. Hopefully, we'll just laugh our hearts out while reading it, but I doubt it since I know how hurtful my words are. Still, I know someday, things will be better. We can no longer be friends, but hey, it's a small world, after all, there is still a big chance that we will bump into each other. I hope when that time comes, we can then share a smile.

So for now, dedma talaga!! Yoko ng away. Negative vibes should not be entertained. If she's still mad, I just hope she does it in silence.

For the next two weeks, we'll all be busy looking for a new place that's as good as where we live now but cheaper.

In 16 days, we will have peace, FINALLY!!

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