Monday, February 5, 2007

How do we receive unexpected love from someone???

What if someone loves us and you know from that moment that you can never love that person back? How do we receive such love? How do we refuse from it and keep the friendship? Is is possible?

I remember my angel, his name I prefer not to mention. He loved me in silence while he saw me suffer in an abusive relationship. He kept me strong, kept me sane, because I had no one ten for everybody was angry at me for staying in the relationship. I was broken, down and damaged. I was left with nothing but wounds to heal. He helped me to get back on my feet. Was it love? Almost... We became inseparable but we're not an item. I know I was free but he thought, otherwise. We parted ways as if we never knew each other. He went to California, believing that we were together. Harsh I may be, I kept telling him, it never happened. I thought...Yes, but it never happened.

He said this is his song for me:

BLESSED (CHRISTINA AGUILERA)

When I think how life's used to be
Always walking in the shadows
Then I look at what you've given me
I feel like dancing on my tiptoes
I must say, everyday I wake
And realize you're by my side
I know I'm so blessed

Chorus:

Blessed for everything you've given me
Blessed for all the tenderness you show
Do my best with every breath that's in me
Blessed to make sure u never go

There are times that I test your faith
Til you think you might surrender
Baby I'm, I'm not ashamed to say that
My hopes were growing slender
You walked by in the nick of time
Looking like an anwsered prayer
You know I'm truly blessed

Chorus:

Blessed for everything you've given me
Blessed for all the tenderness you show
Do my best with every breath that's in me
Blessed to make sure u never go

2nd chorus:
Blessed with love and understanding
Blessed when I hear you call my name
(when I hear you call my name baby)
Do my best with faith that's never ending
Blessed to make sure you feel the same

Deep inside of me you fill me with your gentle touch
You know Im truly blessed

Chorus:
Blessed for everything you've given me
Blessed for all the tenderness you show
Do my best with every breath that's in me
Blessed to see you never go
(never never never go)


**yes we do keep in touch every now and then but I know what we had will never be the same again, but it was worth a try. I will always remember him as my angel who helped get my life back from someone who never knew my worth as a person, as a woman, as a partner and as a friend. TO YOU, THANK YOU.

Going through it was fine. But AGAIN!! After 4 years??!! Hey, i'm not sure if this guy is for real but the song, it was too much for me to not at least think and be concern. We only exchanged hi's and hello's in the office but last Christmas, he asked what do I want as a gift. I was kidding but I said anyway that I wanted a hardbound copy of Harry Potter 1. He didn't give that, he gave Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets (2). Then this song...

"Far Away"

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go

**what do you want me to think and feel? although I have settled the issue through responses I sent on his email, I still need to hear what he has to say. I have no intention of leading him on, he is young and there is so much ahead of him, since he'll be leaving for california (hmmm, coincidence?). Spooky.
Still, I find this as a good song. Don't you think?

What I've Been Looking For

I saw the Pop Up version of the High School Musical -- watching the same movie, only better because of the trivia that keeps popping up at almost every scene. I really love this movie. Highly recommended, teaching teens to avoid bad peer pressure, be achievers, value friends and know yourself.

Best of all, I love the song, "What I've been Looking for". Although in the OST, it's Ryan and Sharpay's version of the song, I like Gabriella and Troy's version better. Just want to share the lyrics... Love it!!!

Ryan:
It's hard to believe
That I couldn't see

Together:
You were always there beside me
Thought I was alone
With no one to hold
But you were always right beside me

Sharpay:
This feelings like no other

Together:
I want you to know

I've never had someone that knows me like you do
the way you do
I've never had somone as good for me as you
no one like you so lonely before i finally found
what i've been looking for

Sharpay:
So good to be seen
So good to be heard

Together:
Don't have to say a word

Ryan:
For so long I was lost
So good to be found

Together:
I'm loving having you around

Ryan:
This feeling's like no other

Together:
I want you to know

I've never had someone that knows me like you do
The way you do
I've never had someone as good for me as you
No one like you
So lonely before, I finally found
what I've ben looking for

Together:
Doo Doo DooDoo
Doo Doo DooDoo
Do Do

Woa-ah-ah-oh


So there!!

training

First day of training at The ACCENT last Saturday, February 3, 2007. I almost fell off the stairs on my way to the office.(Injury!!) Wala ako sa sarili, parang nakakapanibago. I'm going to be responsible for the communication growth of these people. I only have three students in my Saturday 8am-5pm class: Mommy Lorie, Rachel and Mommy Ely.

Introductions, orientation, encouragement and oral activities to evaluate their levels. I don't know them yet so I can't really tell you anything about them for now.

All I know is that I'm excited and nervous...

shopping spree

Sweldo na naman... Yehey, tamang-tama!! May sale sa SM North Edsa from Feb. 2 until Feb. 4. As usual, sira ang budget. Ang tagal ko na ring hindi nakakabili ng gamit. kaya diretso agad ako sa ground floor para bumili ng gamit sa bahay. I bought 2 sets of curtains for P100 each, 4 spoons for P100 (the cutest spoons ever!), 4 forks for P100 (the perfect match for the cutest spoons!), 2 pillowcases for P165 and 2 bath towels, on sale for P100 each. Nice!!!

Then I started looking for a nice pair of pumps (actually kahit ano, basta pwede sa jeans at ok din sa office attire) but failed to find one. I'm not a trendsetter, I'm into those styles that are quite hip, I'm more on the safe side of fashion, something that I can wear any time of the year kasi classic. Pero wala masyadong ganon na binebenta ng mura. Kahit sa mga jeans wala ng hindi faded or sandblasted ang color. Musta naman? Pano kung gusto ko yung pants ko mukhang bago at hindi yung mukhang nilabhan na ng ilang beses. kainis!!! Grrr! I ended up buying 1 blouse from Forever 21 which was on sale at P180 (price was: P450, o di ba bongga?)

I bought a wallet at EGG (exciting gifts + goodies), my favorite store to date, for P200 to match my bag (a Xmas gift from papush, from EGG, too). Happiness!! I bought shampoo, soap, deodorants, lotions and toothbrushes. I also went to National Bookstore to buy materials for my training the next day (Saturday).

Tapos, heto na... Lumabas na ang pagkaimpulsive buyer ko... I bought 5 VCDs for P75 each. The titles are: The original Cinderella (Disney), Beauty and The Beast (Disney), Maging Sino Ka Man (Sharonian ako eh. Lam niyo ba?), Bituing Walang Ningning (You're nothing but a second-rate trying hard copycat!) and The Three Musketeers. Wooh.

Tapos umuwi na ako, only to realise, that I forgot to have lunch. nagalit tuloy si bubi.. :( pero he was happy to see na ang ganda ng mga binili ko...hehehe