Happy Birthday to me!!
It’s my 28th birthday yesterday and I’m a year older, hopefully a bit wiser and happier. Hmm, I’d like to believe I am. =D
When I was a kid, I can’t imagine myself reaching this age and still feel the same. Strangely, I do. I think it’s such a slow process, you’re prepared for such changes every second and every minute of your life, that you wouldn’t notice you have changed a lot through the years.
I just usually ask Ceasar what are the recent changes he’s seen in me. The last time I asked him, he said that I am more confident than when he first met me – and I agree with him. I was such a wreck when we first met 4 years ago. I was trying to keep myself together around people but inside, I feel wounded, worthless and trapped in my past. But my being confident has a lot to do with Ceasar and the conversations we had through the years. He helped me heal and love myself despite the painful memories of a previous relationship. He made me realize that if I forgive myself, I’ll be able to let others forgive me and accept me for who I am and what I’ve been through. I’m still in this journey but I know I’m getting there.
This is the second year I’ll be celebrating my birthday without my mom around. Her death somehow ended all the urge for dependence in my system. Her thoughts and views were the standard and with her not being around anymore, I couldn’t help but feel lost and out of track. It was tougher last year but I think I can now handle the fact much better since I’ve come to realize that she will always be around. I’ve felt her presence in the toughest of times when I felt I couldn’t do it and find myself surviving them.
I’m now 28 but I wonder, what do people usually wish for and want when they turn 28?
Here is my list…
I want to be healthier. I want to start taking my Pilates seriously. I lost those excessive through it without depriving myself of food that I love to eat. I find it hard to get back to the habit after I had my wisdom tooth removed and another tooth extracted.
I also want to start jogging/running again at the UP Oval, better if it is raining. And indulge in fish balls and cheese sticks after. =P
I want to travel – to beaches, scenic spots, cities, provinces and countries – to any place where I will have the chance to savor the beauty of life, the wonders of friendships and forget the pressures and demands of the real world for a while.
I want to take more pictures. Now that I have my own digital camera, I know I can do this without limit. =P
I want to be engaged. (Ahem-ahem) Period.
I want to get a house. (attention, Pag-IBIG!!)
I want to teach again. I missed helping out kids who are having difficulty in English. I know I am not a good writer. I am even lazy. But I have this passion and interest to teach English language and grammar. Those who can’t do, TEACH! Hopefully, I will have the time and the resources to review for the LET next year.
I want to take driving lessons. I don’t have the car and I won’t have one in years but I just want to learn how to drive. I’m a coward (I have this great fear of the unknown)and this is one way for to be a bit more brave and conquer my fear.
I want to take French lessons. Learning the language is one of my frustrations. (Another would be being a cheerdancer/gymnast) This is a preparation to my other dream – to go to France and visit all the places mentioned in Dan Brown’s novel, The Da Vinci Code and try ratatouille.
I want to be a better Christian – a Christian with a purpose and has a personal relationship with God.
So far, this is what I want to start doing or accomplish this year as a 28-year-old me. These are not wishes but goals I have to act on, so I need all the discipline, courage and determination and prayers to make this year much more meaningful than the last.
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Birthday thanks:
I would like to thank everyone who remembered me and my birthday. Thanks for the emails, text messages and messages/comments (through Facebook, my blog, and Friendster) I received and continue to receive. You truly made my day super-duper extra special.
Thank you, Ceasar – for the snacks he bought me after his shift.
Thank you, Apol and Gran – for taking the time to see me on my birthday.
Thank you, Gran – for the wonderful dinner and the Kettle Corn popcorn. I also enjoyed the bus ride with you.
Thank you, Uno Animo team – for the cute messages.
Thank you, Vayie, for my Cookie’s (David Cook) pic. I love it and I’m keeping it!! Super thank you!!!
Again, to everyone, thank you for your thoughtfulness and sweet words!!
It’s my 28th birthday yesterday and I’m a year older, hopefully a bit wiser and happier. Hmm, I’d like to believe I am. =D
When I was a kid, I can’t imagine myself reaching this age and still feel the same. Strangely, I do. I think it’s such a slow process, you’re prepared for such changes every second and every minute of your life, that you wouldn’t notice you have changed a lot through the years.
I just usually ask Ceasar what are the recent changes he’s seen in me. The last time I asked him, he said that I am more confident than when he first met me – and I agree with him. I was such a wreck when we first met 4 years ago. I was trying to keep myself together around people but inside, I feel wounded, worthless and trapped in my past. But my being confident has a lot to do with Ceasar and the conversations we had through the years. He helped me heal and love myself despite the painful memories of a previous relationship. He made me realize that if I forgive myself, I’ll be able to let others forgive me and accept me for who I am and what I’ve been through. I’m still in this journey but I know I’m getting there.
This is the second year I’ll be celebrating my birthday without my mom around. Her death somehow ended all the urge for dependence in my system. Her thoughts and views were the standard and with her not being around anymore, I couldn’t help but feel lost and out of track. It was tougher last year but I think I can now handle the fact much better since I’ve come to realize that she will always be around. I’ve felt her presence in the toughest of times when I felt I couldn’t do it and find myself surviving them.
I’m now 28 but I wonder, what do people usually wish for and want when they turn 28?
Here is my list…
I want to be healthier. I want to start taking my Pilates seriously. I lost those excessive through it without depriving myself of food that I love to eat. I find it hard to get back to the habit after I had my wisdom tooth removed and another tooth extracted.
I also want to start jogging/running again at the UP Oval, better if it is raining. And indulge in fish balls and cheese sticks after. =P
I want to travel – to beaches, scenic spots, cities, provinces and countries – to any place where I will have the chance to savor the beauty of life, the wonders of friendships and forget the pressures and demands of the real world for a while.
I want to take more pictures. Now that I have my own digital camera, I know I can do this without limit. =P
I want to be engaged. (Ahem-ahem) Period.
I want to get a house. (attention, Pag-IBIG!!)
I want to teach again. I missed helping out kids who are having difficulty in English. I know I am not a good writer. I am even lazy. But I have this passion and interest to teach English language and grammar. Those who can’t do, TEACH! Hopefully, I will have the time and the resources to review for the LET next year.
I want to take driving lessons. I don’t have the car and I won’t have one in years but I just want to learn how to drive. I’m a coward (I have this great fear of the unknown)and this is one way for to be a bit more brave and conquer my fear.
I want to take French lessons. Learning the language is one of my frustrations. (Another would be being a cheerdancer/gymnast) This is a preparation to my other dream – to go to France and visit all the places mentioned in Dan Brown’s novel, The Da Vinci Code and try ratatouille.
I want to be a better Christian – a Christian with a purpose and has a personal relationship with God.
So far, this is what I want to start doing or accomplish this year as a 28-year-old me. These are not wishes but goals I have to act on, so I need all the discipline, courage and determination and prayers to make this year much more meaningful than the last.
Birthday thanks:
I would like to thank everyone who remembered me and my birthday. Thanks for the emails, text messages and messages/comments (through Facebook, my blog, and Friendster) I received and continue to receive. You truly made my day super-duper extra special.
Thank you, Ceasar – for the snacks he bought me after his shift.
Thank you, Apol and Gran – for taking the time to see me on my birthday.
Thank you, Gran – for the wonderful dinner and the Kettle Corn popcorn. I also enjoyed the bus ride with you.
Thank you, Uno Animo team – for the cute messages.
Thank you, Vayie, for my Cookie’s (David Cook) pic. I love it and I’m keeping it!! Super thank you!!!
Again, to everyone, thank you for your thoughtfulness and sweet words!!
