I just sent one of my very good friends the longest email we’ve ever shared together yet. We no longer get in touch with each other the way we used to or wanted to. I guess, that’s most adults become – they drift apart from those deemed closest to them even without the intention of doing so. We all just “grow up”, I guess.
The email is just one of those usual emails we sent in the past, only longer. I responded to his not-so-usual long email asking me how I was doing and filling me in on how he was living his very busy life. I gave him a summary of how simple my life is, my recent fears, dreams and ambitions (sorry, I’m not observing parallelism here. =P) and what’s coming up. I told him how I missed hanging out with him and wish that we could spend time together soon, just like before.
After I finished typing my email, rereading it gave me a sense of sadness, like I was saying goodbye. I somehow feel like I’m not going to see him ever again and that we will only be just mere impressions of each other’s pasts.
My relationship with him is a roller coaster ride, or was, since I finally found my peace – my purpose in his life. I used to think I would make us happy if we became more than friends. But the tears and the pain are enough to make me realize that I was wrong. The present proves that life has something different in store for us then. I’m glad that we are what we are now. We have our own lives to live but we are still part of each other’s lives – no matter what.
But I feel that we’re drifting apart. His dreams are taking him away from me but who am I to stop him from reaching another milestone in his life? I knew it when I first met him that he was going places and now he is beginning to take that much-awaited journey. It was inevitable but why does it still take me by surprise?
I’m waiting for his response. Maybe his words will make me feel better, comfort me and assure me that he will always be there. Or he will take my email seriously and not respond at all. Or take my email seriously and give me a piece of his mind to shut me up.
I just hope he responds soon and make things clearer for me. I wish this is one of these days when you feel down without reason. I hate feeling like this towards my friends. I should be their personal pep squad, biggest fan, etc, etc.
Where did this all begin?
The email is just one of those usual emails we sent in the past, only longer. I responded to his not-so-usual long email asking me how I was doing and filling me in on how he was living his very busy life. I gave him a summary of how simple my life is, my recent fears, dreams and ambitions (sorry, I’m not observing parallelism here. =P) and what’s coming up. I told him how I missed hanging out with him and wish that we could spend time together soon, just like before.
After I finished typing my email, rereading it gave me a sense of sadness, like I was saying goodbye. I somehow feel like I’m not going to see him ever again and that we will only be just mere impressions of each other’s pasts.
My relationship with him is a roller coaster ride, or was, since I finally found my peace – my purpose in his life. I used to think I would make us happy if we became more than friends. But the tears and the pain are enough to make me realize that I was wrong. The present proves that life has something different in store for us then. I’m glad that we are what we are now. We have our own lives to live but we are still part of each other’s lives – no matter what.
But I feel that we’re drifting apart. His dreams are taking him away from me but who am I to stop him from reaching another milestone in his life? I knew it when I first met him that he was going places and now he is beginning to take that much-awaited journey. It was inevitable but why does it still take me by surprise?
I’m waiting for his response. Maybe his words will make me feel better, comfort me and assure me that he will always be there. Or he will take my email seriously and not respond at all. Or take my email seriously and give me a piece of his mind to shut me up.
I just hope he responds soon and make things clearer for me. I wish this is one of these days when you feel down without reason. I hate feeling like this towards my friends. I should be their personal pep squad, biggest fan, etc, etc.
Where did this all begin?
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