Apol's home!!

I received a text message yesterday from Apol, one of my best friends of 14 years that she has finally come home. Yay!!! It’s been 10 months since we last saw her and now that she’s back, I can’t wait to spend time with her before she’s off again.

I just hope she stays here long enough to celebrate my and Gran’s birthday.

Hey Apol, welcome back!! Miss you so much, see you next week. Mwahuggs!!

my new camera

Yay!!

I finally bought my new digital camera (a gorgeous black Sony Cyber Shot DSC-W110) last Wednesday. (It's actually a gift from galanteng Ceasar.)


Thanks, pupish!

I can't describe it -- it's beyond words, it's a dream come true. (Okei, lemme just borrow Kmart's word when he saw the camera: WOOOOW!!)

can't wait to take pictures of my family and friends. =D

yummy pancake!!

I just want to thank Tetay for the Jollibee pancake treat she gave me, Cai, Vayie and Kim.

Thank you, Tetay!! Ang sarap ng pagkaing libre. Hehehe... It was so generous and sweet of you.

Lahat kami nakangiti ngayon habang inaantay ang oras ng pananghalian.

bummer

I'm still stuck in the 7am-4pm shift.

Super bummer!

Tetay and I celebrated the change (we thought we're back to our 6am-3pm shift) prematurely and so I came to work with disappointment after reading Dustin's text message this morning.

Let's find something good in this.

MILEY [my' - ley]/[my' - ly]

**how painful it is to feel something so powerful when you know you are powerless? How special is someone for one to willingly feel the pain the memory of that someone brings? How painful it is to not know whether you should let go or wait? How far are you willing to go to know if that love is the ONE?

Read on...

I sit here and I remember you once again – how I felt about you, how you took my breath away with every touch and kiss. I remember them like it was just yesterday. I remember the dreams we shared – believing that things will be the way we want them to be. I remember the pain as vivid as it was when you left me without anything to hold on to while I wait for the time when you come back to me.

I tried to let go of this unreciprocated love, but I was a fool to think that everything will be the same when the time comes. I tried to ignore your words that linger in my thoughts but they come as fresh as the moment they came out of your sweet lips. I tried not to miss your touch but it is still as warm as the first time you touched me. I suffer every time I’m reminded of your memories, yet I’d rather be hurt than not remember you at all.

I wish I would die and live again and find you at the right place and at the right time. I wish I can hold your hand without doubt. I wish I could caress your lips without fear of losing you ever again. I wish I could hug you without guilt because I now know you are mine. I wish I could stay with you forever and until I breathe my last breath.

But all of these are just wishes – wishes that I know will never come true; false hopes for things that I know could never be. I know these are mere souvenirs of what we used to have.

Yet, I am here waiting – waiting for Fate to change it for me, for us – waiting for you to turn around and come back to me and take me in your arms and tell me that you love me. I am here waiting for you to find the strength to take that leap of faith and be with me; waiting for you to realize that I AM WORTH IT, because I know I love you the way no one has loved you before.

You don’t know this, you will never know this. I want you to see it, find it, realize it on your own. I wait for you in silence and in agony and in longing, I hope you realize it before it’s too late, before I’m too tired, too hopeless to love.

MILEY

favorite quotes

"When you know better, you do better." - Maia Angelou

"Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn't. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted." - Morrie, Tuesdays with Morrie

I barely know you. I don't know your dad's first name, I don't know if you ever wore braces, or contacts, or glasses and I have no idea how you came to be a wedding planner, Mary. But I do know the curves of your face. And I know every fleck of gold in your eyes. I know that the night at the park was the best time I've ever had. - Steve (Matthew McConnaughey), The Wedding Planner

"It is our choices Harry, that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities." - Albus Percival Wulfric Brian Dumbledore, Chamber of Secrets

"We can do no great things; only small things with great love." -Mother Teresa

"Love means never having to say you're sorry." -Jenny Cavilleri to Oliver Barrett IV, Erich Segal's LOVE STORY

"Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. But not knowing which to do is the worse kind of suffering.” - Paulo Coelho

"You have to take risks. We will only understand the miracle of life fully when we allow the unexpected to happen.” - Paulo Coelho

"The moment of that kiss contained every happy moment I had ever lived.” - Paulo Coelho

"When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.” - Paulo Coelho

“One is loved because one is loved. No reason is needed for loving.” - Paulo Coelho

"Everyone seems to have a clear idea of how other people should lead their lives, but none about his or her own." -Paulo Coelho

"I think that when we look for love courageously, it reveals itself, and we wind up attracting even more love. If one person really wants us, everyone does. But if we're alone, we become even more alone. Life is strange.” - Paulo Coelho

Hitch

RJ and Kmart dropped by at the house last night. I was reading Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix but found that it would be almost impossible to do this with much concentration as Kmart continues to surprise me with new things that he learned so I decided to just surf the TV for something light to watch and came across the movie, Hitch.

Don’t worry, this is not one of my boring entries where I’m pretending to be a movie/book critic. (wannabe me!! =P) I just want to share this line in the movie that would be a perfect guide for us to live our life to the fullest and see life as a journey to happiness, contentment and fulfillment.

“Life is not the amount of breaths you take; it’s the moments that take your breath away.”
Yun lang!!

an article to inspire and empower us

I just want to share this article that I received in my Yahoo email. I find this (article)very inspiring and empowering for people (like me) who want to let go of the past pains that continue to haunt them – hopefully through this, we will find the strength to forgive ourselves and the acceptance that we deserve to be happy despite the mistakes we’ve made. We cannot find this overnight but to see that flicker of hope that we can SOMEDAY is I think a BIG step towards that goal.

It's time to let go. It's time to move on.

Let It Go....
by Bishop T. D. Jakes
There are people who can walk away from you and hear me when I tell you this - when people can walk away from you: let them walk. I don't want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone.

When people can walk away from you let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left. The Bible said that, "they came out from us that it might be manifest that they were not for us. For had they been of us, no doubt they would have continued with us." (1John 2:19).

People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you can get super glue and you can't make them stay. Let them go. And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person it just means that their part in the story is over. And you've got to know when people's part in your story is over so that you don't keep trying to raise the dead.

You've got to know when it's dead. You've got to know when it's over. Let me tell you something. I've got the gift of goodbye. It's not that I'm hateful, it's that I'm faithful, and I know what ever God means for me to have He will give it to me. And if it takes too much sweat I don't need it. Stop begging people to stay. Let them go!!!

LET IT GO!!!


If you are holding on to something that doesn't belong to you and was never intended for your life, then you need to...Let it go!

If you are holding on to past hurts and pains... Let it go!

If someone can't treat you right, love you back, and see your worth...Let it go!

If someone has angered you...Let it go!

If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge...Let it go!

If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction...Let it go!

If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or talents...Let it go!

If you have a bad attitude...Let it go!

If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better...Let it go!

If you're stuck in the past and God is trying to take you to a new level in Him...Let it go!

If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship...Let it go!

If you keep trying to help someone who won't even try to help themselves...Let it go!

If you're feeling depressed and stressed...Let it go!

If there is a particular situation that you are so used to handling yourself and God is saying "Take you hands off of it," then you need to...Let it go!

Let the past be the past. Forget the former things. God is doing a new thing for you! LET IT GO!!!

Get right or get left...think about it, then...LET IT GO!!!

Let God's love, peace, and blessings be with you always...

The past cannot be changed...the future is still in your power!

woohoo! my favorite days

Yay!! Finally, my two favorite days (well, at least for now), Wednesday and Thursday – my rest days are now here.

I will definitely take long naps because I’ve been having trouble sleeping these past nights that I only get 4 hours of sleep daily. (Painful!) I can now go back to reading the Goblet of Fire. Oh, yeah, I need to do a little bit of house cleaning. It’s my turn to cook lunch and dinner for two days since I’m homebound. I also need to have our clothes picked up by the laundry woman. Of course, I’m going to wash some of my clothes that I don’t want to be machine-washed.

No fancy plans this week as I need to stretch my budget til next pay out. Hahaha..

Kudos to me.. finally

Hold your thoughts, there! I'm not self-centered, egotistic or anything like it. I'm just happy today after my coaching session with my supervisor.

Got my stats for Week 1 of August (08/03-08/09), and I’m just ecstatic!! I’ve been struggling for months to get a decent number under my name. Finally!!!

CSAT: 78.57 (Target 77)
FTR: 85.71 (Target 76)
Quality: 85.00 (Target 80)
EPH: 8.20 (Target 7)
**to some, these numbers may not mean anything, but to me, these are the FRUITS of HARD (and I mean, haaaaard) labor, man. Hahaha…

Can I get a “Woot! Woot!”?!! =P

surprise treat from bubi

Sinorpresa ako ni Ceasar kahapon. =D Sinundo niya ako sa office at ON TIME siya para pumunta kami sa Robinson’s Galleria to have dinner in celebration of our 4th anniversary.

It was really such a pleasant surprise coz I know he really went out of his way to get there on time. He lacked sleep since Saturday coz we attended my Daddy’s 54th birthday celebration after both coming from our respective shifts.

We just walked around the mall first, just looking. I can’t really buy anything on impulse since I’m saving my money to buy my first-ever digital camera. (I have my eyes on the following: Canon Ixus 75/Ixus 80, Sony Cybershot w110 or Olympus FE320.) But it was still fun, we get to talk which we have not done much recently since the change in my schedule.

We decided to have dinner at Kenny Roger’s coz we’re both craving for roasted chicken. Di namin kasi kabisado yung mall kaya hindi na kami naghanap pa ng ibang resto na nag-se-serve ng roasted chicken. Haay, grabe busog kami. Looks can be really deceiving. Kala ko ang liit ng servings sa KR pero kakabusog din pala. After eating, we then ordered Josine’s dinner and went on window shopping.

I saw this FIC stall and I had the urge to buy their Pistachio ice cream and definitely, no regrets!! Love the taste and texture, although I would have enjoyed it more if I ate it while sitting since it kept me from checking out my favorite boutiques I saw while we were strolling.

We went to AstroWorld and found that the House DVDs and Planet Earth DVDs are both on sale. Aaarrrgh!! I’ve been wanting to buy those goodies for so long but I really find them too pricey then, until now, when all are for less than a thousand pesos each?!! That’s really a bargain – I’m going insane!! I really should make up my mind on what camera I should buy and where so I can move on to my next projects (books and DVDs).

We then went to National Bookstore and looked for any interesting book on sale, sadly none. But I think I’ll soon get a set of the Twilight series, about a vampire and a mortal in love and their struggles. It was announced this week, (days after Warner Bros. announced that The Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince movie’s debut was moved to July 2009 from November 2008 – super bummer!) that its first book’s movie version will be shown this November 2008 and was said to get the same attention as the Harry Potter series. (Of course, we have to wait and see.) I got excited when I heard that the actor who will be playing Edward Cullen’s character (the vampire) is Robert Pattinson, the same guy who played Cedric Diggory in the Goblet of Fire!! Such a hottie. =P

After rummaging through the pile of books at NBS, we realized that we have to go home since it was already half past seven and poor Josine, we have her dinner. (Bad big sister, bad!!!) We just made a stop at Le Couer de France to buy bread and off we went.

It was a tiring day from work and malling but it was worth all the energy spent. I realized that I’m blessed to have a best friend, barkada, boyfriend, confidante and critic – all rolled into my only Bubi Pachiez, Ceasar – coz we don’t get tired talking about anything under the sun, we have similar interests that keep us together and differences that make us unique and a mystery to each other.

@Ceasar: Thanks, baby for a wonderful 4th anniversary celebration! Love you!

sunnysundayremindsmeilove2read

This is my third entry for today. We’re not that busy at work, thank goodness. The number of emails that we have when we arrived this morning was manageable. (We answered the emails in two hours.) Most of us (most especially, the am shift peeps) have been really stressed out because of the high volume of emails (I don’t want to discuss the factors that I think may have caused this.) and this is a pleasant way to spend a sunny Sunday, just chillin’.

However, this kind of day makes me sometimes wish that I have the time and the smackaroos to go out and unwind. Parang hindi ka na makapagrelaks na hindi naglalabas ng pera sa panahon ngayon. That’s why I’m so happy I have my books to turn to when all else fails (or not affordable??). I get to travel different places and know different people and cultures without leaving the comforts of my room.

I admit I can spend hundreds of pesos just to buy the books that catch my attention and interest. I’m proud to be the owner of Harry Potter Books – I bought Books 3-6 (Prisoner of Azkaban, Goblet of Fire, Order of the Phoenix and The Half-Prince) on impulse but Book 1 (Sorcerer’s Stone) was given to me by Teddy Bear Joel, a friend and former teammate; Book 2 (Chamber of Secret), a Christmas gift from Marck “Baby Gurl” before he left for the US and Book 7 (The Deathly Hallows) from Graham, a friend and former product trainer who is now back in Canada studying and pimpin’ (hahaha!!). (Am I not lucky to have generous friends?). I also have books of authors, Agatha Christie, John Grisham, Sidney Sheldon, Paulo Coelho and Robert Ludlum as well as in English grammar and French.

Do you know that my dream house has its own library? Yup, true!! I love reading!!

Take note, I’m a selective reader, but the topics that interest me are quite diversed. Kaya lang mas hinahatak ang hilig ko sa mga storya na may murder-mystery and sex and violence. I just don’t know why, but I knew when I came across Agatha Christie and Sidney Sheldon when I was Grade 2, I need to read more of their works, saka na lumawak yung hilig ko sa ibang plots when I reached high school.

Haaay…

I think I’ll start saving again (after I buy a digital camera) so I can get my hands on the book entitled, An Incomplete Education, claimed to reacquaint you with the topics you probably missed and slept through in school. Matagal ko nang gustong mabili to kaya lang pag bibilhin ko na, may biglang ibang bagay na eeksena na mas kelangan na atensyon. Pagkatapos talaga ng camera, ito naman.

Haaay…

Wonderful news

Tetay’s back to work today with great news. Her mom’s mitral valve replacement surgery (last Friday) was a success. Her mom is on her way to recovery and is now allowed to eat solid food. She will be out of the hospital in a week’s time.

This is another living proof that PRAYERS move mountains. =D

Another year for us..

It’s Bubi and babi’s 4th anniversary today. Yipee!! We almost didn’t make it today as a couple (I don’t want to remember the rough times we’ve been through) but I’m glad we did.

We don’t have any special plans today since I have a shift ‘til 4pm. We’re probably just going to eat out in one of our favorite food establishments in Diliman (either in Maginhawa or in UP) – just spend some time together really. Since we have different RDs and shifts, it has been really difficult for us to make any plans or spend time with each other the way we used to. A little blessing is still a blessing. =D

Bubba,

Thank you for another year of love and laughter. Yes, we went through a lot this year but I guess, this just means you’re stuck with me. You can never get really rid of me even if you want to. =P

I want to thank you for bringing out the best in me – I learn a lot from you everyday with simple words that you share. I appreciate the passion that you have in life, love and music. I’m proud of your generosity and your willingness to be the strength for others.

I’ve always told you that you are the main reason why we are still here – your patience and understanding make and will always a big difference.

I look forward to another year with you – as we take pleasure in seeing our dreams unfold before our very eyes, holding each other’s hands and smiling..

More food to enjoy, more places to explore, more times to treasure and more love and laughter to share.

I love you, shamumiz pumpachiez!! Happy 4th anniversary!!