MILEY [my' - ley]/[my' - ly]

**how painful it is to feel something so powerful when you know you are powerless? How special is someone for one to willingly feel the pain the memory of that someone brings? How painful it is to not know whether you should let go or wait? How far are you willing to go to know if that love is the ONE?

Read on...

I sit here and I remember you once again – how I felt about you, how you took my breath away with every touch and kiss. I remember them like it was just yesterday. I remember the dreams we shared – believing that things will be the way we want them to be. I remember the pain as vivid as it was when you left me without anything to hold on to while I wait for the time when you come back to me.

I tried to let go of this unreciprocated love, but I was a fool to think that everything will be the same when the time comes. I tried to ignore your words that linger in my thoughts but they come as fresh as the moment they came out of your sweet lips. I tried not to miss your touch but it is still as warm as the first time you touched me. I suffer every time I’m reminded of your memories, yet I’d rather be hurt than not remember you at all.

I wish I would die and live again and find you at the right place and at the right time. I wish I can hold your hand without doubt. I wish I could caress your lips without fear of losing you ever again. I wish I could hug you without guilt because I now know you are mine. I wish I could stay with you forever and until I breathe my last breath.

But all of these are just wishes – wishes that I know will never come true; false hopes for things that I know could never be. I know these are mere souvenirs of what we used to have.

Yet, I am here waiting – waiting for Fate to change it for me, for us – waiting for you to turn around and come back to me and take me in your arms and tell me that you love me. I am here waiting for you to find the strength to take that leap of faith and be with me; waiting for you to realize that I AM WORTH IT, because I know I love you the way no one has loved you before.

You don’t know this, you will never know this. I want you to see it, find it, realize it on your own. I wait for you in silence and in agony and in longing, I hope you realize it before it’s too late, before I’m too tired, too hopeless to love.

MILEY

favorite quotes

"When you know better, you do better." - Maia Angelou

"Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn't. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted." - Morrie, Tuesdays with Morrie

I barely know you. I don't know your dad's first name, I don't know if you ever wore braces, or contacts, or glasses and I have no idea how you came to be a wedding planner, Mary. But I do know the curves of your face. And I know every fleck of gold in your eyes. I know that the night at the park was the best time I've ever had. - Steve (Matthew McConnaughey), The Wedding Planner

"It is our choices Harry, that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities." - Albus Percival Wulfric Brian Dumbledore, Chamber of Secrets

"We can do no great things; only small things with great love." -Mother Teresa

"Love means never having to say you're sorry." -Jenny Cavilleri to Oliver Barrett IV, Erich Segal's LOVE STORY

"Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. But not knowing which to do is the worse kind of suffering.” - Paulo Coelho

"You have to take risks. We will only understand the miracle of life fully when we allow the unexpected to happen.” - Paulo Coelho

"The moment of that kiss contained every happy moment I had ever lived.” - Paulo Coelho

"When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.” - Paulo Coelho

“One is loved because one is loved. No reason is needed for loving.” - Paulo Coelho

"Everyone seems to have a clear idea of how other people should lead their lives, but none about his or her own." -Paulo Coelho

"I think that when we look for love courageously, it reveals itself, and we wind up attracting even more love. If one person really wants us, everyone does. But if we're alone, we become even more alone. Life is strange.” - Paulo Coelho

Hitch

RJ and Kmart dropped by at the house last night. I was reading Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix but found that it would be almost impossible to do this with much concentration as Kmart continues to surprise me with new things that he learned so I decided to just surf the TV for something light to watch and came across the movie, Hitch.

Don’t worry, this is not one of my boring entries where I’m pretending to be a movie/book critic. (wannabe me!! =P) I just want to share this line in the movie that would be a perfect guide for us to live our life to the fullest and see life as a journey to happiness, contentment and fulfillment.

“Life is not the amount of breaths you take; it’s the moments that take your breath away.”
Yun lang!!

an article to inspire and empower us

I just want to share this article that I received in my Yahoo email. I find this (article)very inspiring and empowering for people (like me) who want to let go of the past pains that continue to haunt them – hopefully through this, we will find the strength to forgive ourselves and the acceptance that we deserve to be happy despite the mistakes we’ve made. We cannot find this overnight but to see that flicker of hope that we can SOMEDAY is I think a BIG step towards that goal.

It's time to let go. It's time to move on.

Let It Go....
by Bishop T. D. Jakes
There are people who can walk away from you and hear me when I tell you this - when people can walk away from you: let them walk. I don't want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone.

When people can walk away from you let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left. The Bible said that, "they came out from us that it might be manifest that they were not for us. For had they been of us, no doubt they would have continued with us." (1John 2:19).

People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you can get super glue and you can't make them stay. Let them go. And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person it just means that their part in the story is over. And you've got to know when people's part in your story is over so that you don't keep trying to raise the dead.

You've got to know when it's dead. You've got to know when it's over. Let me tell you something. I've got the gift of goodbye. It's not that I'm hateful, it's that I'm faithful, and I know what ever God means for me to have He will give it to me. And if it takes too much sweat I don't need it. Stop begging people to stay. Let them go!!!

LET IT GO!!!


If you are holding on to something that doesn't belong to you and was never intended for your life, then you need to...Let it go!

If you are holding on to past hurts and pains... Let it go!

If someone can't treat you right, love you back, and see your worth...Let it go!

If someone has angered you...Let it go!

If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge...Let it go!

If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction...Let it go!

If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or talents...Let it go!

If you have a bad attitude...Let it go!

If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better...Let it go!

If you're stuck in the past and God is trying to take you to a new level in Him...Let it go!

If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship...Let it go!

If you keep trying to help someone who won't even try to help themselves...Let it go!

If you're feeling depressed and stressed...Let it go!

If there is a particular situation that you are so used to handling yourself and God is saying "Take you hands off of it," then you need to...Let it go!

Let the past be the past. Forget the former things. God is doing a new thing for you! LET IT GO!!!

Get right or get left...think about it, then...LET IT GO!!!

Let God's love, peace, and blessings be with you always...

The past cannot be changed...the future is still in your power!

woohoo! my favorite days

Yay!! Finally, my two favorite days (well, at least for now), Wednesday and Thursday – my rest days are now here.

I will definitely take long naps because I’ve been having trouble sleeping these past nights that I only get 4 hours of sleep daily. (Painful!) I can now go back to reading the Goblet of Fire. Oh, yeah, I need to do a little bit of house cleaning. It’s my turn to cook lunch and dinner for two days since I’m homebound. I also need to have our clothes picked up by the laundry woman. Of course, I’m going to wash some of my clothes that I don’t want to be machine-washed.

No fancy plans this week as I need to stretch my budget til next pay out. Hahaha..