Buti na lang

Para sa 'yo...Kung nagbabasa ka man
Buti na lang, aklat lang ang nakuha ko,
Na binigay mo sa akin nung tingin mo mahal mo pa ako.
Buti na lang, hindi mo nabili yung mamahaling bagay na yun,
baka hindi lang insulto ang nakuha ko sa yo.

Hindi ako makapaniwala sa aking narinig,
inisip mo na tinatangi kita?
Sana'y nagbibiro ka lang nun,
dahil sa umpisa pa lang, sinabi ko na.

Ikaw ay hindi ko maaaring mahalin,
Nang higit pa sa kapatid na turing.
Pasensiya na kung ikaw ay nalito,
iningatan ko lang na huwag masaktan ang puso mo.

Sa bandang huli, nawala ring saysay
ang pag-iingat sa kaibigan
Ang pagmamahal na alay
para sa yo'y kulang, sa aki'y kalabisan.BOW!

Just want to let you know that I'm still here. I just didn't have the time to keep my blog up-to-date since my last entry which I think I made while I was still in training for chat with Vayie and Kim.
Here are some of the things that happened/thoughts I had in the past 3 months:

• Tin gave me an eBay pin. (Thanks, Tin! Love it and I love you more!)
  
• I finally have my very own Twilight Saga collection in my arms. Thanks to Tetay! I had another reason to cry.
  
• I already spent a Christmas Eve in the office for the first time and it was an agony.
  
• I felt like leaving this job that I came to love (because of the people I work with - Uno Animo) because of people who thought they knew better.
  
• Thank God for my friends (Uno Animo), they gave me enough reasons to stay ~ their friendship and their sense of humor.
  
• RJ, Josine and I visited my mom last December 30th. We had fun. It's like sharing stories with our mom the way we used to.
  
• I got myself a planner this year -- to help me manage my time and money and organize the things that need my attention. (But I always end up doing things a week AFTER -- talk about procrastination)
  
• Ceasar gave me a new bag and new coin purse.
  
• I promised myself I will add color to my life this year -- more color to my clothes, stuff, etc.
  
• I'm so fond of Black this year -- Black purse, black bag, black umbrella, black brush.
  
• I bought Ceasar a new messenger bag and 3 pairs of socks -- ayoko nang makita yung bag niya na hindi niya mabitawan dahil nabili lang daw niya yun sa ukay-ukay sa halagang singkwenta pesos 3 years ago. Utang na loob! Di bale nang gumastos ako.
• I had the chance to spend my much-awaited VLs in Tagaytay but ended up getting sick.
  
• I was hospitalized for three days due to acute bronchitis.
  
• Ceasar bought me a "Blue Book" shirt to cheer me up.
  
• I am now addicted to the TV series "24".
  
• Warrick Brown's death in CSI Season 8 made me cry.
  
• Gil Grissom's eulogy at Warrick Brown's funeral made me cry harder.
  
• CSI Miami's Season 1 is boring.
  
• Dr. Gregory House is soooo funny.
  
• I have a crush on Danny O'Donoghue (vocalist, The Script) for 4 months now.
  
• But still not close to beating, William Petersen (Gil Grissom, CSI), Edward Cullen (Twilight Saga) and Harry Connick, Jr. (Leo, Will and Grace). =D
  
• Ceasar and I failed to celebrate our Valentine's week '09 at the UP Fair.
  
• But we celebrated our Valentine's at Chaikofi and Scooperman, The Block.
  
• I can't wait to see the movies: "Angels and Demons", "The Matarese Circle", "New Moon" and "Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince".
  
• The songs: "Single" (NKOTB), "Rain" (Razah), "Hypnotized" (Gemini), T-Shirt (Shontelle) and "Just Dance" (Lady Gaga) make me want to go to a bar and groove!
  
• The songs: "P.S. I'm Still Not Over You" (Rihanna), "The Man Who Can't be Moved" (The Script), "Again" (Janet Jackson), "Have You Ever" (Brandy) and "Heartbreaker" (Tank) almost always put me to sleep.

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I admit, I prefer Facebook over Friendster. I just find it easier to use and more pleasant to look at, but it doesn't matter. Bottomline, these social networks has helped me rekindle friendships, reconcile with people whose existence I vowed to treat with silence and indifference, reconnect with people who I didn't have any connection with and simply make new friends from all over the world.

Last night, I decided to check my Facebook account while watching a boring part of "24". I received a message from one of my ex-boyfriends. To my dismay, he asked me, "Who are you? You look familiar and you're too pretty to ignore but I don't remember where we met." WTF?!! Pagkatapos mo akong paiyakin nung Valentines day, 10 years ago, tatanungin mo ako kung sino ako?! (Sorry, ex-bf, ganon talaga nasabi ko sa sarili ko at least.) Yes, sinabihan niya ako ng pretty pero walang halaga sa akin yun dahil di niya ako naalala. Ganong na ba ako ka-forgettable? Sino ba siya, si Simon Cowell? Anyway, I simply sent him a courteous response with the gory details of how and why he broke up with me for another girl. Hehehe... We already talked and he gave me loads of excuses why he didn't recognize me. It felt like we were once again in a relationship. =P

Thanks, Vayie

I just want to thank Vayie for sharing her blog tricks with me. That is why my account is neater and look so much better.

Thanks, Vayie!

no sugarcoating, please.

Bubi and Babi's monthsary last November 17th (yes, it's corny, I know, but we do celebrate it) ended with a pffft!.Thanks to the unexpected bad news that I was one of the CHOSEN agents who will be transferred to another queue. Reasons were laid out - because I am a QA performer and that I have good communication skills. Blah, blah, blah. And THAT doesn't make me a KEEPER?! Bullshifism, I say. (Jay, pahiram muna ng expression.)

They couldn't let go of my other teammates because they were already trained for the tools that will roll out by next week. Why were we not trained the same during our QMT which caused so much concern among the superiors that we were not PRODUCTIVE?! (I wonder...)

That night, I asked myself "WHY ME?". And it all boils down to one thing --they just had to let me go because I speak my mind. I think it's unfair that I am being "punished" for using God's gift to put some people in their place, but hey, I'm NOT a supervisor, right?!

I'm really upset at this decision for many reasons. First, I was treated like I was a newbie or a probie -- transferring me to another queue without any notice or procedure. I feel I am not valued and my status and loyalty was not considered. They're lucky that I won't be caught for insubordination.

Second, I love my queue. I think it's the best queue EVER!! It's interesting and challenging and it takes time before one can really say that they are qualified to handle our queue and its issues.

Third, I don't want to be in a chat queue.

Lastly, I will definitely miss my friends and the times we have. I am so blessed and honored to have work with such wonderful and smart people. I'm proud to say that we are the reason why the queue has evolved to what it is today. =D It's sad to know that I won't be working with them anymore. But like what Alex said, "once an Uno Animo, always an Uno Animo." That's really comforting. (Thanks, Alex!)

To those who continue to try to insult my intelligence, I admire you for having the guts to do so. But I hope you won't deceive yourself believing that you have succeeded because we know better. You were able to do what you have done because you are in the position to manipulate the process, but that doesn't mean that you are way smarter than I am. In fact, I AM SURE that I AM SMARTER than all of you combined. WE ARE SMARTER than you all are because we have the heart to do what is right.

You had your turn. I will definitely have mine.

I'm thankful that I have Vayie and Kim to make things a whole lot easier for me.

@Vayie and Kim -- we know better so I'm sure that we'll definitely do better. Vayie, thanks for the encouragement. I always look up to you and you are an inspiration. Kim, thank you for making our voices heard. You made our voices heard when you said your piece. I hope they will try to become better leaders from now on.

@Kuya Homer -- I will miss having our talks about life in general. Nabawasan na ang mang-aasar sa yo, lakas mo namang magdasal. =P

@Cyper -- thank you sa comforting words. di tayo madalas magkita but I want to thank you kasi kahit ganon you always save a warm hug and smile for me.

@Jhoan -- Ingatan mo ang sarili mo. Alam ko, madalas akong mang-asar sayo but that doesn't mean I don't care. Love yourself first. Sana maintindihan mo na we care. You may not hear the words you want to hear, but you'll definitely hear the words that NEED to hear kasi kaibigan ka namin.

@Kuya Alex (hehehe...) -- I'm so happy that you're having a baby boy. Kahit mejo grumpy ka minsan, alam ko you'll be a great dad. Ingatan ang sarili, bawasan ang pagkain ng matataba at ang pagyoyosi. =D

@Febe -- thank you for the chocolates everytime you see me sad, tired and sleepy. I feel better not because of the chocolates but because of your thoughtfulness and sweetness. =)

@Dustin -- my Roman Cath'lic chorva!! I will definitely miss our conversations and our English accent lessons. hehehe...

@Tin -- Ingat sa mga dates. ;P

@Tetay -- ikaw ang kasundo ko in a lot of things. Haaay, I will definitely miss our conversations and food trips after work.

I love you guys. We're not just teammates, we're good friends. I hope I will still have the chance to work with most of you again.

GO UNO ANIMO -- One Team. One Goal. One Mind.

I'm Alive!!

I can't believed that it's the last day of my first week here in our new location -- Total Corporate Centre in Taguig.

I mentioned before that I actually welcomed the change but that doesn't mean that I'm not concern that any booboos might make me consider leaving my job.

So I'm happy to say that so far, I'm okay. I survived the changes and I'm alive!! =D