**this is my last day for this week, it's my day off tomorrow, Friday and Saturday. I feel like I've been passive to the people around me today since I am sleepy the moment I woke up this morning. I can't wait to get home, lay in bed, read finish the book,"The Summons" by John Grisham (Tetay, thank you and sorry for making your book stay with me this long.) and sleep for hours!! Ha!
Hopefully, in the weeks to come, I'll give you some personal reviews on books that I've read or bought. Also, past experiences that will haunt me and my days every now and then. Sounds crazy, but they do. I sometimes find myself crying my heart out to my boyfriend for things that I've accepted, will not change.
Like this one...
I know that I have a great childhood because I was oblivious to things that happened in my family and around me or I was made to be oblivious to them. But now that I am all grown-up, I realised that I have so many things to say to my mom, my dad, my aunties, my brother, my titas, my sister --- but I was made to believe that I should not feel such emotions as I will disappoint a lot of them. Only to find out in the end that I can actually feel them and it's not bad because feeling such things is a giant step towards healing. Maybe that's why I kept looking back to the past or it's the past that kept haunting me because I never fully recovered because I never truly faced them. Hmmm, thinking about changing this situation -- meaning telling these feelings to their face, I'm not sure if they can actually handle them --the bottled-up anger, hidden insanity and frustration, regrets, blame and hopes that never found their way out.
In the coming weeks, I'll be more specific as they come.
But for now, I'm tired, exhausted and sleepy.
hoohhuuuummm...
zzzzzzzzzzzz............
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