compo

i'm trapped in these walls called love

never cry over things never meant for me

put myself in the losing end

coz you're just worth it, worth the risk



in the absence of certainty

i am sure



i don't want to say goodbye,

i can't and i won't

i will never ask questions

for answers i am not ready to hear,

not ready to handle



who i am and what i have

i lost myself



love means never having to say you're sorry

but i'm sorry you're not the one for me

i'm sorry that things don't go our way

still, i can't let go, won't let go

kompo: CLOSET

bilanggo sa katotohanan,

kahit saang anggulo tignan

hindi maibahagi, hindi maisiwalat

(pag-ibig ko sa yong tapat/tapang ko ay hindi sapat)



kaligayahan ko'y aking kasiraan

unti-unting nalulunod, tila di makahinga

nakakulong sa sarili kong mundo

lumuluhang mag-isa



di alam kung may makakaunawa

dalangin ko'y inog ng mundo'y mag-iba

bigyan ako ng pag-asa

Makamtan ang kaligayahan

ninanais, inaasam



mahagkan ang yong labi

maangkin ang iyong puso

mahawakan ang iyong kamay

makita ka, makasama ka



ngunit kay lupit ng mundo

kahit saglit na mahalaga

tila ako'y mabibigo

na makuha

Poetic justice to a bleeding soul.. hehehe..

visions...
visions I want to remain
visions I want to fade away as they bring so much pain

souvenirs and tokens of love that could never be
some tangible, some not
yet they bring lasting memories that never want to leave

words may be enough
but your love is all I want

I've held your hand, kissed your lips
Felt your breath on my skin
But I know, I'll never have your heart.

please let me go
or let me in
either way, i'll seek refuge in myself

you're free
soon, you'll no longer be
another hurt, another wish to be numb

couldn't hate you
coz you're oblivious
to this feeling burning in me

i want to see what's ahead of me
desperate in saving my tears
for something I can't have
-- I almost have

To Papush

Bubba, sorry for putting you in such a compromising situation. Through the years that we've been together, you've taught how to fight back, stand up for what I believe in at the right time. I treated your brods like they are my real brothers - welcomed them without second thoughts because they are your brothers.

But I've had enough. I have said my piece last night. I know I am right. It was confirmed when he was trying to justify her girlfriend's behavior.

However, it doesn't matter anymore whether I'm right or not. I'm tired of caring for their/her issues. She will be a ghost in the house. I will no longer consider her in any of my decisions.

I want us to be happy and if ignoring her is one way then I'm ready to do it. Anyway, she's useless to me.

Again, I'm sorry and I love you.

That's it!! I've had it.

You will now be non-existent in my life. I will no longer let myself be bothered by your uselessness and inconsideration towards others. I want my peace of mind back.

This is my home. With the help of the people that I love, I made it a home, feel like a home, look like a home. So, THIS IS MY HOME. And I won't let someone who does not even share with the expenses ruin it or make it feel less of a home.

YOU live WITH ME!! It's your turn to make the necessary adjustments. I've done my part for the past months. You're not my master, I'm not your servant. I don't need to spend my time adjusting to YOUR needs or issues. If you can't live with me, then LEAVE -- you and your boyfriend with NO BALLS to stand up for what is right and what is proper.

From now on, you will no longer feel my care and warmth as if you're a part of my family. I've had enough of you and your primadonna ways.

Stay out of my way and we'll both be fine.